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First off: If my post is not appropriate in this forum, please reclass or notify me.

I am a SA survivor, something I thought I had dealt with/handle still fairly successfully.

But the Epstein saga is in the news everywhere, with abuse being graphically described. And suddenly I realize that what's being detailed is exactly what my mom's pig of a boyfriend did to me at that same age of 12.

I can't shake it. It's not my husband with me, it's the pig. Unfortunate that my H is now as old as the pig was when the SA happened, with grey hair to boot.

When I intentionally try to fantasize it morphs to the pig. It's been held in check for over 50 years and now it's almost daily. Does anyone have this same situation? Does anyone have any suggestions? Many thanks, WO

I'm having the same issue and feeling so hopeless when I see how many people of power are going to get away with this. It is incredibly triggering... every damned day. People say, "Well, don't watch the news." But a part of me says to myself, why should I let these fuckers dictate what I can and can't do.

I actually brought this up with my therapist last week and told her I was so enormously exhausted by it all and she said it's such a frequent story in therapy sessions across the board right now that therapists are having to be supported because they're carrying such a heavy weight of all those clients who are feeling so overwhelmed.

fwiw... I don't spend a ton of time watching the news every day. Maybe a half hour total unless there's a news story breaking (like our HUGE blizzard last week!). But when I'm on the internet, it's hard to avoid the headlines, even if I don't read the stories. And I do like reading the news - how else would I have seen the story in our local weather that says today will be the coldest day for us until next winter!!

But yea, I hear you. Being a survivor right now is awful.