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stonewall_wife ( member #20932) posted at 3:08 AM on Friday, September 10th, 2010
I'm having trouble with this today too.
Thinking about how even the good memories hurt and confuse.
I'm so tired of this shit.
I have a exams tomorrow but for some reason today has hit me hard and I'm drowning my sorrows for the first time in months.
SW
I know that I've got issues, but you're pretty messed up too- Kelly Clarkson
Will Not Be Brok ( member #21553) posted at 3:50 PM on Friday, September 10th, 2010
I sit and think sometimes when the A's first started. When I first felt him pulling away. I'll never really know. All I know is he acted like everything was fine and it wasn't. I can't listen to Chicago anymore Cause it reminds me of him.-I'm a Beatles girl anyway 
I don't know how much his family really knew- now after knowing these people, IL's, extended family, etc. for 30 years,NO ONE calls to see, at least how the kids are- aren't they still family to you people?! 
Maybe the kids are better off, since I am persona non grata for not putting up w/ the crap and doing what I had to do to keep me & the kids safe and sane. I'm so much better off w/out him. We are happier, calmer, I'm getting back to the person I was before Mr. NPD took over, and I'm liking what I find.
Faith is the bird that feels the light and sings while the dawn is still dark.
goodmom ( new member #16016) posted at 5:28 PM on Friday, September 10th, 2010
Have not been on the site in a while. I thought I was doing well and didn't need it anymore. Haha! I have been down the last few days and all of your thoughts are exactly what I have been feeling and thinking.
D final for eighteen months and separated for eighteen months before that. I can honestly say that I am still an emotional cripple and do not know how to get past it. He took everything I every had and stomped on it. Twenty five years rewritten to suit all his infidelities and wrong doings, that I allowed to go on and on because I felt responsible for it all. It was my fault...if I only could do better, be better.
Sometimes, standing at my kitchen window, I can't believe I am free, but I wonder if I will ever truly be free.
[This message edited by goodmom at 11:29 AM, September 10th (Friday)]
Me: BS Him: WS
M: 22 1/2 years
Together: 25 years
Kids: D18, S16
D Days: Oct 06, Feb 07, May 07
Separated 7/07--He is on his fourth OW.
Divorce final 3/09.
wonderingbull ( member #14833) posted at 6:07 PM on Friday, September 10th, 2010
The ex and I had some great times... Not having children and with both of us gainfully employed we were able to travel a lot...
I look back on many of our times as wonderful. It was when her evil, selfish and lying twin showed up that everything gets blurry...
I knew she was quiet but I never really knew the depths of her twisted morals...
WB
The secret of life is enjoying the passage of time...
James Taylor
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