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Housefulloflove ( member #38458) posted at 6:21 PM on Wednesday, September 18th, 2013
Maybe I didn't really like being married?
You probably didn't like being married to a selfish asshole. Neither did I. When I kicked ex out I felt relief. I couldn't sleep and barely ate for months and the gaslighting, TT, blameshifting and lying made life hell. When he left he took all his giant piles of bullshit with him and in that moment, there was peace! After not sleeping more than a couple broken hours a night for months, I fell asleep before he had even finished packing his bag and I slept until I had to get up to take my kids to school. I spent that morning thanking God that the bastard was out of the house. Although I was scared to death, I knew that the worst was over.
Marriage to a functional and faithful person is likely much different than life with a selfish bastard turn cheater. If not, I would think the divorce rate would be somewhere around 99%. 
[This message edited by Housefulloflove at 12:22 PM, September 18th (Wednesday)]
Me-29 Starting over
ExWH-29 Probable NPD, PA, manchild
3 beautiful young children
DDay 1/20/13 Admits PA
No remorse so NO R. DIVORCED! 9/2013
41andthankful (original poster member #38650) posted at 12:31 AM on Thursday, September 19th, 2013
The thing is not once did I think of leaving nor divorce before his a. It took that to make me realize my marriage really wasn't that great. I was stressed tired and over worked trying to be a good wife. I was not getting anything in return. I think I felt trapped, like there were no real deal breakers. His a gave me a much needed out.
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