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Sal1995 ( member #39099) posted at 10:48 PM on Tuesday, November 26th, 2013
Thanks everyone, but just to be clear I'm still at home and just contemplating D/S from a wife who has emotionally abused me in the worst way. The loss of time with my kids, and breaking up my kids' happy home, will be the consequences of whatever choice I make. As for my WW, she's a big girl, she made her own choices, and can live with them as far as I'm concerned. I just wish the rest of us didn't have to live with them. The kids had no choice. I have two choices...both really bad.
Apologies for the t/j Phoenix1 but I think we are somewhat staying on topic here.
Abbondad ( member #37898) posted at 11:00 PM on Tuesday, November 26th, 2013
I think that those who walk away are never really satisfied with anything, ever. They are constantly trying to fill that vacant spot in their black souls, but they don't realize that whatever they are searching for, they will never find.
I third this. I remember one of the few serious fights I had with my STBX years ago. I remember telling her angrily, "You are a bottomless well. I can pour and pour for the rest of my life and you will not be satisfied. There is something in you that will not be satisfied. You have placed me so high on a pedestal as The One to undue everything you went through in your life that if I ever waver, to you I will have toppled off this pedestal. That is too much of a burden for me and unfair."
I was proven right. Nothing could fill the void and she walked away looking for the next thing. Now that I look back at it, even if I'd been the perfect husband (whatever that means) it was inevitable. She would have cheated and she would have left me.
But goddam her, I still miss her ( who I thought she was) especially when I am having fun and loving times with our children and her "chair" is empty.
[This message edited by Abbondad at 5:04 PM, November 26th (Tuesday)]
Divorced April Fool's Day 2014
Fear is the mind-killer.Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.I will face my fear.I will permit it to pass over me and through me.-Dune
tryingagain74 ( member #33698) posted at 3:02 AM on Wednesday, November 27th, 2013
Same here-- mine will never be happy. He looks for external validation, and when that wasn't coming from his family life, he sought it elsewhere. He could never see the happy that was right in front of his face, and as a result, he's flung it all aside in pursuit of creating his "new" family that is supposedly making him happy... until it doesn't. 
FBS; now happily liberated!
Two DS and One DD
It matters not how strait the gate,/How charged with punishments the scroll./I am the master of my fate:/I am the captain of my soul.--"Invictus," William Ernest Henley
sparkysable ( member #3703) posted at 5:58 PM on Wednesday, November 27th, 2013
You are a bottomless well. I can pour and pour for the rest of my life and you will not be satisfied. There is something in you that will not be satisfied.
I think this is true for all disordered, unremorseful WS's. This is what I have to think of when those thoughts start creeping into my head, late at night. This has nothing to do with us, and nothing we did could have changed anything.
D-day OW#1 2/2004;D-day OW#2 5/2010
Marriages that start this way, stepping over the bodies of loved ones as the giddy couple walks down the aisle, are not likely to last.
Exit Wounds ( member #32811) posted at 8:09 PM on Wednesday, December 18th, 2013
Mine saw his kids a total of 3 times. Total hrs spent in 3 visits? Less than 3 hrs!
Those are his babies too!
My kids are heartbroken. My heart hurts for them. I just don't understand...
Even if I was the worst wife in the world (which I was not), why abandon his own kids?!
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Exit WoundsH of 17 years got gf pregnant, left our kids 9 & 11 and we never saw him again. -His choice.
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