Well it's over for some of you, others we still have just over an hour, other have 2-3+ hours left.
Newsflash you all made it break downs and all. Now that is saying something about YOU as a person, your resolve to get through this even when it is just unfuckingbearable. Not gonna lie here, I still have moments when it get's like that, good news .... they are fewer, I have better control of them(can even feel them coming on, sometimes)So I am better prepared. I have my mental emergency kit, emotional one, and some IRL ones. Sometimes I need them sometimes I don't, nice to know they are there though, just in case.
Now we prepare for one of the favorite holidays of single people all over, and those of us who are not by choice ..... New Years Eve has always been worse for me than V-day. Not sure why, guess I always fell jipped on this day. I was single for many years, when Xh and became an item -- he always had to work, had to be in bed early cause he had to work so early, or we were at a party/hanging out and he was off being a social butterfly and I was alone(essentially, even surrounded by others) always looking for him to come be with me.
I was never able to capture the magic of our 1st New Years Eve .... That first one the one that started everything off, was epic. Nothing after ever came even close ......
OOPS ---- sorry rambled and T/J'ed my own thread ...
More hugs and wishes for you all to have a soft, warm, safe place to rest your heads/hearts I know they have taken a beating .... 
You made it though .... We knew you could 
