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I don't know why but I had an angry day. Started this morning when getting him up for work. He wasn't being very cooperative. Then doing laundry and my day to day stuff I got really angry. How unfair that she got all the affection and attention while I took care of him. Made his lunches, cooked for him, made sure he had clothes to wear. Suffered his bull sh*t and his excuses just for her to get what I call the good stuff. The I love yous and how was your day baby. For 2 years she got all the stuff I should of got. Sorry for ranting but I'm trying to remain reasonable and not just blow up. I am angry and hurt and it hit me out of no where.

My new mantra

Sometimes recovery is waking up early to write in coffee shops and practicing yoga and eating lots of fruit and chocolate and sometimes it’s staying in bed all day and hiding from the world until you can stop crying. All of this is okay. What’s important is that you take care of yourself no matter what kind of day you’re having.

Having a real bad day. The dark thoughts won't stop. I feel so old and ugly and useless. I know it was his choice to cheat. I have had 4 serious relationships and 3 of those were marriages this being my 3rd. I have been told by many what a great person I am - kind, forgiving, loads of patience etc etc. If that is true why can't I find 1 man who loves me and only me? All 4 relationships had cheating of some sort. I cook - I clean - I take care of them and the children - sex isn't a problem - but it's never enough. I always get hurt. So sick of being hurt. So ready to give up some days. And it's not like he isn't trying - he is I just can't figure out what is wrong with me.