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wildbananas ( member #10552) posted at 4:20 PM on Tuesday, August 21st, 2018
Congratulations - that's awesome!!!
Travel light, live light, spread the light, be the light. ~ Yogi Bhajan
Butforthegrace ( member #63264) posted at 4:27 PM on Tuesday, August 21st, 2018
"The wicked man flees when no one chases."
Root (original poster member #58596) posted at 5:20 PM on Tuesday, August 21st, 2018
prissy4lyfe: BH says I don't quit but R has knocked me on my ass. I've struggled with depression yes but I've never been bed ridden with it. I can almost remember the day I gave up. My doctors goal has been to get me out of bed and functioning. Some days I exceed that goal but it's a slow process.
thatbpguy This interview was tough. Lots of questions like "what animal best describes you and why". Not this ridiculous but you get the idea. I was mostly witty but at times I choked.
LosferWords Yes I did it.
Lucille123 I never FELT amazing I LOOKED amazing. Now my insides match my outsides. I'm aware I have to build something new but I do miss the delusions.
pureheartkit I'm BPD and one of my skills is talking a good game. I don't follow through with my promises though. I didn't care before and now I do. I don't want to let anyone else down.
pinkpggy I look great on paper. All these accomplishments seem fake now. I read a book by Patty Duke who also has bipolar and she wrote about trying to destroy her Oscar. I totally get that.
TarheelNurse I've gotten a lot better at letting go of control. I realize now I control very little in this life.
DesertLily I'm so sorry a cheater like me has made you like that. I've never had panic attacks before and they are scary. I now have anti anxiety pills which help if I can't talk myself down.
MrsWalloped I'm a good pretender. It's a skill I picked up in childhood. Be what they want and maybe I won't get yelled at or hit.
Butforthegrace Sometimes that badass part of me comes out. Its a great feeling. It doesn't last long but it's heavenly while it does.
WilliamM They acknowledged I had the skills but was lacking in management experience. I'm afraid of course that they will all hate me. lol
Greeneyesbluezy I've intertwined everything. Cheating = can't do anything. I did work really hard not to ruminate over the interview after it was over. I did think of better answers but reminded myself to let it go. It was over and out of my control.
ohforanewme You're going to make me cry. Recently I had to get a receipt from my kids doctor. My arrogant side slipped out as I proceeded to give the receptionist directions on how to do HER job. She snapped at me. I realized my mistake and apologized. She forgave me immediately and her whole demeanor changed in an instant. This is humility in action.
Get busy living or get busy dying.
MrsWalloped ( member #62313) posted at 8:12 PM on Tuesday, August 21st, 2018
Congratulations!!!
So, so happy for you! Yay!
Me: WW 47
My BH: Walloped 48
A: 3/15 - 8/15 (2 month EA, turned into 3 month PA)
DDay: 8/3/15
In R
hikingout ( member #59504) posted at 8:18 PM on Tuesday, August 21st, 2018
That's awesome! Maybe this will help you begin to mentally sort things out. I find when I am productive and busier it does a lot for my self-worth.
8 years of hard work - WS and BS - Reconciled
Ripped62 ( member #60667) posted at 8:31 PM on Tuesday, August 21st, 2018
Congratulations Root!!!
You are marvelous!!!
thatwilldo ( member #59326) posted at 1:10 AM on Wednesday, August 22nd, 2018
Root, this is great news! Enjoy being busy, meeting new people, learning new things and providing extra income to your family. I'm so happy for you. It's one of the things that made my day!
I know you'll do great! Your family must be so proud of you.
[This message edited by thatwilldo at 7:11 PM, August 21st, 2018 (Tuesday)]
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WilliamM ( member #60910) posted at 2:47 AM on Wednesday, August 22nd, 2018
You are amazing. I am happy for you. And remember, you are a mother. You definitely have managerial skills.
LosferWords ( member #30369) posted at 2:55 AM on Wednesday, August 22nd, 2018
Hi Root - That is awesome! I am glad you faced your fears, and the anxiety, and got the job! Wow! Congrats.
Greeneyesbluezy ( member #58158) posted at 3:10 AM on Wednesday, August 22nd, 2018
Root,
This accomplishment is just one step of many you have taken.
Please acknowledge, just for a moment, how you are moving forward so positively.
We all see it, we just pray you do, too. Many many congratulations and good thoughts for you.
Stop right there, I already don't give a fuck.
Root (original poster member #58596) posted at 3:13 PM on Wednesday, August 22nd, 2018
Shit. I'm being groomed for the position above me. I know people and the gossip has started.
Get busy living or get busy dying.
pinkpggy ( member #61240) posted at 3:41 PM on Wednesday, August 22nd, 2018
You haven't even started yet! Oh lordy!!
Hopefully it will go smooth and be an easy transition.
How are you feeling about things, are you getting excited at all?
Root (original poster member #58596) posted at 4:22 PM on Wednesday, August 22nd, 2018
You haven't even started yet! Oh lordy!!
Hopefully it will go smooth and be an easy transition.
How are you feeling about things, are you getting excited at all?
Is there such a thing as professional success after a mental breakdown?? BH knows a lot of people hence the gossip. I know these people too (sorta) but I've become a recluse since my breakdown. No one knows.
Get busy living or get busy dying.
prissy4lyfe ( member #46938) posted at 4:26 PM on Wednesday, August 22nd, 2018
Stand in the moment...
JUST STAND.
NOT tomorrow, not the past, not 20 minutes in the future...
Just STAND. IN. THE. MOMENT!
You earned it. Give yourself 3 minutes of arrogance, job well done, Baddest chic on the planet feeling....
pinkpggy ( member #61240) posted at 4:28 PM on Wednesday, August 22nd, 2018
Root- YES.
After staying home for 8 years, I went back to work Nov 8 2016. My affair started Nov 28 2016. I had an affair, dday and a breakdown all within 6 months. To the point I had to confess everything to my boss out of fear of being fired, I thought they thought I had a drug problem. I was terrified. They took the information and actually helped me. I was at ROCK BOTTOM.
Fast forward to this July I was called in to HR, they actually created a new position for me, I was promoted, went to full time and almost doubled my salary, etc.
You can and will succeed.
Marcy70 ( member #48134) posted at 6:02 PM on Wednesday, August 22nd, 2018
Great news, Root! I am very happy for you. :)
Me: WW (1970)
Him: BH (1970)
Root (original poster member #58596) posted at 1:41 PM on Thursday, August 23rd, 2018
prissy
You earned it. Give yourself 3 minutes of arrogance, job well done, Baddest chic on the planet feeling....
I had this last night and lost it right as I woke up. I got more info and there is potential for me to make a Robert Downey Jr kinda comeback. I want to go back to bed....I'm so scared and I leave in 2 minutes.
pink
After staying home for 8 years, I went back to work Nov 8 2016. My affair started Nov 28 2016. I had an affair, dday and a breakdown all within 6 months.
This totally sounds like something I'd do (just kidding - BH if you're reading). I can fuck up anything right??
Marcy - Thanks. I am so scared.
Get busy living or get busy dying.
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