Phosphorescent (original poster new member #84111) posted at 10:26 PM on Thursday, October 2nd, 2025
I am so mad with him that he made me feel like this! That he put me in this position and I have to drive the thoughts that are clouding my mind out of my head the last three and a half years now…Did he love her (he says no, it was an addiction) ? But while he was doing all the dirty deeds (and I am not talking only about the sex) he was feeling it! He had all these feelings! Lust, rush, love or limerance I don’t care, those were all feelings! And time. And conscious effort to be with her and to handle me. It’s so painful. It’s so disrespectful. Today I have a hard day! And I would like just to get it out and scream. Or meet someone and arrange my payback. All this talk about my values concerning revenge affair falls flat in the face of the total disrespect that my loving husband showed me!!!! And I keep thinking about how he was feeling then, even though he feels revolted by his actions when he thinks of it since the 5th of August 2022. He is a brilliant man!!!! How can I be convinced that he didn’t think that this would devastate me. I can’t! I just can’t! This is why infidelity feels like a completely personal attack….
Phosphorescent (original poster new member #84111) posted at 10:41 PM on Thursday, October 2nd, 2025
I am sorry for the error in the title 🙄
