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My dog died and I’m so devastated
This year has been one for the books. I went NC with my father on 3/14, which would’ve been my mom’s 70th birthday but also the day my 5yo dog got diagnosed with IMHA.
She was hospitalized for a blood transfusion and put on immunosuppressants. She was discharged only to eat a whole towel. Another hospitalization for towel removal surgery. Another hospitalization for when the surgical incision became infected and the internal sutures popped open.
She did well from May until October, when she ate something and became unable to eat or have a bowel movement. She was seen and diagnosed with an ileus (gut became paralyzed) and she was discharged once that was resolved. Ate something else, more nausea and vomiting. Another two hospitalizations for nausea control over 1.5 weeks.
30k we spent this year trying to care for my sweet girl.
We never could get to the bottom of what caused it, but we decided ultimately the kindest thing was to put her down. She couldn’t eat despite wanting to, which was her favorite thing to do.
I miss her so much. She was only 5. It’s not fair. She didn’t do anything wrong to deserve all this.
Her name was Olivia and we called her Olibb, big girl, sweet girl, love bug, and everything else but Olivia it seems.
I don’t know how to move forward just yet. I have my two older dogs for comfort and distraction. I’m showering them with as much love and attention as I can.
20 comments posted: Thursday, October 27th, 2022
Finally went NC with narcissist father
I FINALLY F*ING DID IT!!!
On what would’ve been my mom’s 70th birthday, I called my father and let him know that our relationship was not healthy for me, that I wouldn’t respond to any attempts to contact me, and I loved him and wished the best for him. Then I hung up. It was glorious. I cried soooooo much after. I was grieving the loss of my only living parent, the idea of the relationship I always wanted but never had with him, and I finally felt free. Fiancé held my hand through the entire thing and then held me after.
Fiancé checked the mail today and in it was a letter with my house key to return to me. It said the following:
Please find herein the house key to *my address* for
purposes of emergency/utilitarian entry.
Be advised you may discard the key we gave you for entry into *their address*. New locks were installed today.
Thank you for your attention in this matter.
*Signed by him and his gf*
Y’all. I am WHEEZING. This is the freaking funniest thing I’ve ever read. I just oh man..
His whole family backs me up on my decision. My grandma, his mom, took money from his inheritance to put aside for me in case I needed a lawyer to go against him after my mom died and she’s using that to help me pay for my wedding. I love my family so much.
6 comments posted: Friday, March 18th, 2022
Insecurities have me feeling silly
Growing up, I was never the popular girl but I did know everyone and they knew me. I always envied the cheerleaders and popular girls. I knew then and still know they don’t have perfect lives. I’m still friends with some of those girls from grade school and have followed them on social media.
What is really silly to me is I *still* feel envious of some of them. I gained weight in nursing school and since then. While I’ve lost 20 lbs in the last few months and am feeling much better already, I feel like my overly large chest and my big nose hold me back from feeling confident in my appearance. One of them wore this incredible dress, she gave me the link when I asked, and I just tried it on. My friend is a size 4 after 2 kids. I was previously a 4 and now I’m a 14/16 after 5 years of constant stress (nursing school, the ending of my relationship with fwbf, losing my mom, working two covid icu jobs).
While I’ve lost 20 lbs already since May just by cutting out sugary treats and soda, I see my friend’s fb post and am jealous of how incredible her life appears. I have an amazing bf who loves how I look now and he is so patient and supportive of me. He supports that I want a nose job and suggested a breast reduction. I’m looking into those soon but am currently recovering from surgery for my appendix.
I just hate that I STILL feel envious of prettier friends. How do I not look at her posts and feel jealous??
5 comments posted: Friday, October 8th, 2021
iPhone not jail broken
Every iPhone keylogger or spyware app I've seen requires either the iPhone to be jail broken or for you to have access to their iCloud info. What if neither of those apply to you? Any suggestions for spyware for an unbroken iPhone whose apple iCloud id is unknown?
9 comments posted: Thursday, May 25th, 2017