BS - 55 on dday
WH - 48 on dday
Dday: 9/1/17
Status: Reconciled

Funny how a bad dream can F&ck up your day

I have been feeling really good lately and my husband and I have been doing great, considering we lost my Mom back in October and then he just lost his Mom a month ago. We have been dealing with some deep sorry and sadness the past 10 months.
The affair is a distant memory now, accept for my continued hate for his AP, but that's just what it is.

So last night I had one of those shitty, awful dreams that go on and on and on. I even got up to use the bathroom, went back to bed and went right back into the dream. And of course, it had his AP & her BS in it even though I have never met either of them.
The damn dream seemed like it lasted for hours and in it I was listening to his AP yell at me how much she loved my husband and how pissed she was that he and & I reconciled and stayed together. At one point I was talking to the OBS and telling him all the gory details I knew and he said "Yes - I already knew about all this".
So I went on to beat the living shit out of the AP and pulled clumps of her hair out at one point! I am not a violent person and don't think hitting people is ok, so this was very out of character for me. When my husband kissed me good bye this morning for heading to work (I was still asleep) he asked me how I slept and I told him "Bad dream". When he asked if it was about him, I said "Yes". I knew he felt like shit and has called me numerous times already this morning just to check and see how I am.

WHY DO WE HAVE THESE CRAPPY DREAMS???????? It's been FOREVER since I have had one and have no idea what triggered it. Now all I can think about her is douche bag face.

Sorry for the rant. I just needed a place to vent.

6 comments posted: Thursday, September 8th, 2022