4 years today
4 years ago today my life changed forever at 8:06am with a simple intercepted text by accident 🥲. I was murdered mentally that day.
Thats all, thats my post today.
20 comments posted: Wednesday, November 3rd, 2021
What do you find important in a relationship!?
Im curious to hear from others that have more life experiences than i do what you find important in a relationship? Maybe like a a top 5 or 10 things listed in order of importance. 1 being more important and 10 being less important.
13 comments posted: Monday, October 18th, 2021
Does anyone else feel this way?
I am on the doorstep of the 4th anniversary of dday. 4yrs into R. Overall things are going well. She’s become a great person and R I believe is best for me and a good easy life, no holiday’s to split, no sharing enjoying time with the grandchildren, etc.
What’s bewildering to me is some of the things she says. It’s like the roles have flip flopped and instead of me being the co-dependent one now she is.
Recently someone we knew my age passed away unexpectedly. We chatted about it and I asked her what she’d do? She sent me a meme that said she could not live without me and would not want to to go on without me. I know she’s being a little dramatic but I get the point.
Here’s the bewildering part to me. 4.5 yrs ago this is the same person who was having conversation with om about how someday it will be "just us". Basically I’d been replaced without getting the memo. I was replaced for 16 months and now you cannot live without me?
7 comments posted: Thursday, October 14th, 2021
Confused. Just read “cheating in a nutshell “
I just got done reading the book cheating in a nutshell. Im feeling pretty bummed. The book pretty much points out you are fighting a losing battle with reconciliation. Basically said there are no happy marriages after infidelity and we will just suffer. Im just shy of 4yrs into reconciliation. It’s hard. I still think about it every day. I do want it to work out. We get along great, we always have. We had a few issues before the affair but those were easily worked out. We have known each other our whole life. Together since 1989. Is there any hope of happiness again?
20 comments posted: Thursday, September 30th, 2021
I am currently about half way through the book
Cheating in a nutshell. The ptsd chapter definitely caught my attention. I don't know a lot about it but definitely have suspected i have it. Reading the chapter and the symptoms definitely confirmed this. Nightmares, trouble getting to sleep, staying asleep, relying on ambien and other sleep aides occasionally. I also avoid the a/p work place by going out of my way to not see the building. It's a public building so there are times in the past i would go in for work reasons, i refuse to go in there now because i know the majority of them know, hell some of them were reaching out on dday night at 3am to see if she needed to "talk", fucking dogs🤬
were circling thinking a door had opened 🖕🏼.
What are some good books on ptsd?
Other suggestions /treatments for ptsd?
Any care to share their success stories?
10 comments posted: Monday, September 20th, 2021
How do you deal with knowing you were replaced?
I am approaching our 4th dday anniversary.
Since Im coming to the realization that some of these things are never going to be forgotten about, im wondering how do you cope with the realization that you were replaced? Even if it were only during that time. My WW's early on responses no longer comfort me, "it wasnt real" etc. It was very real at the time and by her own admission if i would have caught her much earlier before the limerance started to wane and the shine started coming off she would have left. How do you ever feel safe again? A new shiny object could always show up again.
Do you always just have a wall built up for your protection?
13 comments posted: Sunday, September 12th, 2021
Need advice from WW
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10 comments posted: Monday, August 2nd, 2021
Why doesn't a revenge affair make you feel better?
I've asked this question several years ago when I was in a much different place. I know from reading on this forum that you will rarely find a person female or male who thinks this works or is a good idea. A recent post on this section confirmed this when that member had a RA that his wife knew about and another long term RA that she didn't. Im confused by that thread because not only did they have a long term ra but they didn't even take the opportunity to leave the original cheater. I am 3.5 yrs out and a RA seems really enticing. Why couldn't I find a 37-44 year old woman who would think im her soul mate /Twin flame fu** the shit out of her and with that fu**my pain away.
47 comments posted: Saturday, July 31st, 2021
Just over 3 yrs
I haven't been here for quite awhile. I was going to post about my struggles but I can see from a recent post "6yrs later" that most of my struggles are not going away anytime soon, probably never, at least in this relationship. Im definitely in the
I love her but im not in love with her. We have an extremely long history, dating since she was 14. I do care for her.
Can any man really get over the sexual infidelity?
I've checked out of the sexual aspect of our relationship. It's my coping mechanism. You see it time and time again on here
"she was different with the a/p" i definitely believe the a/p got the best sexually my ww has to offer. No reason for me to put in any effort. Im not the a/p, I'll never be the a/p. We live in the real world not some fantasy in the back seat of a car.
I'd give our relationship a low probability of long term survival.
How is counseling going to fix this? Yes I did a lot of counseling early on. If i counsel in the future it must be a male who has experienced infidelity and their marriage survived.
5 comments posted: Tuesday, February 9th, 2021