What did you do day to day?
It's been 5 months since Dday 1, after a bit of TT which I admit in my part didn't help is finally over. We have dedcided to reconcille and are in therapy.
I just don't know what to do with myself, it's my day off and I'm on our bed writing this. I have no idea anymore what to do with myself.
If I'm not reading articles or watching videos on affairrecovery or SI, I'm usually just doing chores like the gardening, shopping or cleaning. All of my other hobbies like the gym, socialsing or sports just seem unimportant. I want to learn everything but feel like I still know nothing, my BS doesn't read any of this and wants to reconcille "In the natural way."
I feel like I'm living in a twilight zone. I just feel like I completely obliterated our relationship of 10 years and I'm on my bed doing nothing. They were mad in the beguinning but now are happy with our progress and tell me that they are even proud of the progress we have made. I feel completely empty inside, I just started antidepressants.
They on the otherhand are happy most days, they even jest and make fun of me for my infidelities. This is the strangest way of living I have ever felt. I have asked them if they are rugsweeping but they deny it over and over again.
Sometimes I just feel like I'm on borrowed tine
0 comment posted: Wednesday, July 29th, 2026
