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And I wonder why I still obsess over her. Most of the time I'm good...she gets no space in my head and then bammm... I'm Googling her cursed name. What's wrong with me? I haven't felt such hatred for another person in my life.

I just had to get it out there.

Sorry you are going through this and I wish I had words of wisdom for you, but I don't dole out advice that I wouldn't take myself. I can commiserate with you however as I will always hate that slutty POSOW. I hope her p**** rots and falls out. I hope she is miserable every moment of every day for the rest of her miserable life. I have accepted that I will have this level of hate for someone that deliberately tried to destroy my life and I am okay with it. That is just the way it is. Maybe one day I will be able to feel indifference for her but at this time I don't see that happening, ever.

I've never wished anyone dead before either but I wish my WH POSOW a neverending, horrible, painful death. The same as my soul has suffered.

I am amazed that someone could have driven me to such a dark place.

We two are in the same age group. After 30 plus years of a great marriage, a whore who was only a couple of years old when we married, arrived in our life. Our MC said the ground work was laid when my H confided some confidence and FOO issues to the bitch. She then systematically spent 6 months getting him into her bed. Just like a frog who never feels the water getting hot, he was boiling before he knew it.

I hate her. In our only confrontation a few days ago, I told her she was still NC and not allowed in our private places. She looked at me with a shocked face and said she thought it would be ok because it had already been a 18 months. I told her that forever would not be enough to repair her damage to me. Then she gives me this dumb look and curls her lip. I wanted to hit her so badly I was shaking. I did not say all I wanted, but what I did get out made me feel better. Also, I confirmed she is a self centered immature whore with a combo sociopath/savior complex looking for a penis with money attached. She is also desperate to get pregnant. She did not know my H had a vasectomy years ago.

[This message edited by Lovedyoumore at 8:06 AM, October 17th (Wednesday)]

Well everyone, all I can say to add to that is hurrah for us that don't want to be all grown up and dignified about hating the stinking rotten guts of the c**t who helped destoy our lives as we knew them.

The nasty vindictive whores need a taste of the injustice inflicted on us by them to be returned like the plague, to them, ten fold!

If I could snap my fingers and cause her to burst into flames, she would be nothing but a steaming pile of ashes right now. And I would be happy.

Our 35 year old OW acted completely shocked that someone my age would actually not be OK as long as they broke it off. I guess at my age I am some how supposed to be grateful to her for returning him. In some ways she got a great guy with some middle age issues and returned him to me a messed up, embarrassed, remorseful and shell of who he used to be.

openedupmyeyes ~

Most of the time I'm good...she gets no space in my head and then bammm.

That is me exactly. Just doodling along, than, out of nowhere overwhelming hatred for this slut of a person who helped turn my world upside down. How. Fucking. Dare. She. At 2 1/2 years out from d-day I was really hoping to be "meh!" about OW at this point. Not so much!

Where is the justice? Where is the vengeance? I WANT VENGEANCE!!!!!

((((((opened)))))))

I understand.

I think it took about 4 years before she (2nd OW because she was my "friend") stopped taking up headspace and causing so much hate from within myself. I still hate her, but it is not nearly as strong as before.

All of these are great ideas for the OW. I think there is going to be a large lot of them in Hell! I never thought I could Hate someone so much but even almost 2 years later I still do.

I stalked the OW badly. I just could´t comprehend:

1. How could OW chase an engaged man (specially a woman who had been cheated on b4 by another man!)

2. How could she let herself be seduced my a man who was blatantly unfaithful. Did she not want anything better for herself? When single I ran away from cheats. Was just unfortunate to have come across one and only find out when part of my life was invested. But would have never come close to him knowing he was a cheater. Don't trust them.

3.How could she be so ruthless and hurt another woman so badly. Someone vulnerable just like her. I have always thought woman should grow strong together, not destroy each other.

I hated her very much, but it does get better, just needs time. ((((((openedupmyeyes))))))))))

[This message edited by imaf at 10:04 AM, October 17th (Wednesday)]

You know I have a friend is is a "witch*. She is wiccan and very into witch practicing stuff. I am not a wiccan and no nothing about witches other than the ones from The Wizard of Oz. I will admit I did ask my witchy friend if she would consider doing some kind of voodoo doll, or magic spell, or anything that would cause the OWs any pain. My suggestions were flesh eating crabs, along with paralisis, and life long violent diarrhea...oh yes...all of those things at the same time Unfortunatly, my witchy friend is a "good witch" and cannot do such practices. LOL I never took an interest into her witchy life until thinking about the pain I would want to cause OWs.

Yes, I get the hate. I was always a very caring and gentle individual. I had strong faith and tried to be graceful in handling life. Now? No...not a shred of grace in me. I feel hate. I do try to find grace, but grace hasn't found me yet.

I am sorry you are going through this!

[This message edited by sadbrowneyes at 10:14 AM, October 17th (Wednesday)]

I am battling with this too.

Because I know the MOW & due to the circumstances, I have to see her at least twice a week.

However, our WS's are the ones that betrayed us, no matter what,imo. How can we look at them & not feel the same disgust,anger etc.?

I guess what I'm trying to say is, do we put too much blame on the AP??

If we are working on "forgiving" our WS, then don't we have do the same in regards to the AP?

I tend to google the hag too sometimes, thinking I might find something that may indicate karma has visited her, but nope.

@ sadbrowneyes..diarrhea?? Thought I was the only one..since anal sex is ow forte, I wished anal prolapse and a lifetime of shit running down her leg..one can dream right?

OMG I do love you all so much! You make me smile and I love that we are all in this sharing of the need for vengeance and payback! I don't want to be 'indifferent' about the c**t at this time, I want to go up there, even now, 2 1/2 nearly 3 years into our R and kick her RIGHT in it! So hard it cracks her barren pelvis!

[This message edited by Diva0702 at 10:48 AM, October 17th (Wednesday)]

One of the reasons I hate her is because she won't go away. She is pineing for my h. She believes she is his soul mate. She recently sent an invitation to her daughter's wedding drenched in her scent to our home.

Its been 2 1/2 years.

She won't go away.

Now I realize h isn't contacting her. She fishes every 6 months or so. Asking for him to contact her.

H is in ic doing his thing. Working on us.

Uuuuugggghhh, this shit is hard.

Ostrich80: Geeeez the OWs in my case did some pretty funky things with their butts. I saw pics from their profiles to prove it. LOL. I should google mean withces! I would pay good money to have the OWS (yours too) to have this affliction!

2 1/2 nearly 3 years into our R and kick her RIGHT in it! So hard it cracks her barren pelvis!

Something else we have in common, Diva0702, the OW in our sitch is barren, too. However, I want to throat punch the OW.

[This message edited by SisterMilkshake at 11:19 AM, October 17th (Wednesday)]

Its been 2 1/2 years. She won't go away.

That really is one of the problems I have, too, openedupmyeyes. It has been 8 years since my FWH ended the affair. It continued to stalk/fish for my FWH before I knew of the affair. Now I have known for 2 1/2 years and it still fishes. Every time we just get comfortable, it has to make its presence felt. It is a stab in my heart every single time.

If we are working on "forgiving" our WS, then don't we have do the same in regards to the AP?

IMO, quite simply, NO.

I owe that slut nothing, except the ass kicking she has coming her way if she ever looks twice at my fiance again.

I was equally angry with him. I worked it out with him. I forgave him. I do not need to, nor do I wish to forgive slunty barskank.