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I haven't posted anything in a while. I have been reading though. I just wanted to get this out of my head. Maybe it will help with my clarity.

I've been visiting my parents with the kids for the past two weeks. My W stayed at home because she just started a new job. The break from the kids and me was something she has enjoyed. I don't think she is looking forward to me coming home, but I know she wants to see the kids.Over my stay here I confessed everything to my parents. While I know they were upset with my actions they didn't beat up on me too bad. They mostly just listened. I haven't confessed to too many people.

Anyways, this confession made me realize a lot about myself. I was able to talk about it with a new clarity because of the digging i have done. I've also taken some more time to look deeper into myself. I really think I lost my humility. Before I joined the army I didn't have the same self confidence. While this can be a good thing, I really became arrogant and entitled until it boiled over to my choice to have a ONS. I really thought I could do anything. Wow, how wrong was that.

My current goal is to act more humble.

AlwaysAway: sounds like you have supportive parents that love you. How long ago was your Dday, and are you trying to R? And that sounds like a great goal. Good luck with that

D Day was 4 months ago. I think we are in R. My BS has told me she doesn't want to D, we go to MC, and I am still living at the house. I stopped asking if we are in R, I think it is too soon for her to answer the question.

just curious, is the MC working? and do you want to really R or is this for the kids? I'm getting the same answer from my BS. she won't commit to R yet. I'm still in the house but it feels like that could change at any moment

I think the MC is working. And yes I want to R, more than anything.