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InnerLight (original poster member #19946) posted at 12:11 AM on Sunday, June 2nd, 2013
A weird combo!!! And I feel odd.
I am getting media attention for a retreat I am putting on. A couple minutes on abc affiliate, then an NPR interview Monday - regional program, and a foxnews affiliate Tuesday. It's really exciting for me even if I don't know if it will have any affect on my business. It's nice to get recognition.
Tomorrow is the 5 yr since DDay mark. I was so tense/excited about the TV spot today and now it's done and my energy is sinking down from fatigue and I'm worried I will dive into feeling sad about the way x ended our M. Cried on the drive home and I will end up alone a good portion of tomorrow.
Hate mentioning this as I feel like such a sad sack! It's ridiculous. I should be celebrating my moment of fame.
I am open to all hugs this weekend. Could really use an SI embrace.
Sigh....
BS, 64 yearsD-day 6-2-08D after 20 years together
The journey from Armageddon to Amazing Life happens one step at a time. Don't ever give up!
SBB ( member #35229) posted at 12:33 AM on Sunday, June 2nd, 2013
((InnerLight))
I have a feeling that in the future DD is going to morph into a milestone of something great.
It looks to me like the universe is doing that for you right now.
I may have reached a point where I'd piss on him if he was on fire.... eventually!!
fallingquickly ( member #36599) posted at 3:49 AM on Sunday, June 2nd, 2013
Scars remind us where we've been. They don't have to dictate where we're going. (Criminal Minds)
I saw him, I could not unsee him. -StrongButBroken
There came a point when it was too painful to love him, so I stopped.
gma56 ( member #19595) posted at 4:25 AM on Sunday, June 2nd, 2013
(((IL)))
I also think this going to redefine your dday in a very good way ! 
Congrats !!! Very cool !
The bad is dday but look what you are doing with your business and life !!!
I hate the being alone all the time and no one to share life's victories with but you never know where blessings will show up in our lives. You are on a positive roll !
HUGS
Gma
BW-Divorced
It's my life now, my choices, my mistakes to make and my victories to celebrate. His choices made me free of liars and betrayers in my life. That is priceless.
SisterMilkshake ( member #30024) posted at 4:34 AM on Sunday, June 2nd, 2013
Congrats and how exciting for you, Inner Light. That is so cool. Look how far you have come in 5 years, did you ever think? Truly a NB. ((((InnerLight))))
I feel like such a sad sack! It's ridiculous.
Not really, we all understand here. The bittersweet. Be kind to yourself.
BW (me) & FWH both over half a century; married several decades; children
d-day 3/10; LTA (7 years?)
"Oh, why do my actions have consequences?" ~ Homer Simpson
"She knew my one weakness: That I'm weak." ~ Homer Simpson
nowiknow23 ( member #33226) posted at 4:40 AM on Sunday, June 2nd, 2013
You can call me NIK
And never grow a wishbone, daughter, where your backbone ought to be.
― Sarah McMane
FaithFool ( member #20150) posted at 4:45 AM on Sunday, June 2nd, 2013
As a fellow member of the Class of 2008 I say SQUEEE for the publicity you are getting and BOO for the negative emotions.
Refuse to let that drown out your squee.
This is the year we say enough already. Coming up on mine and I have no plans for the first time since it all went down.
It's going to be fine.
DDay: June 15, 2008
Mistakenly married Mr. Superfreak
20 years of OWs, WTF?
Divorced Dec 26, 2011
"Life is a shipwreck, but we must not forget
to sing in the lifeboats". -- Voltaire
Hope24 ( member #9344) posted at 12:09 PM on Sunday, June 2nd, 2013
(((InnerLight)))
Embrace your success!
She packed up her potential and all she had learned and headed out to change a few things.
cmego ( member #30346) posted at 1:45 PM on Sunday, June 2nd, 2013
((((InnerLight))))
It sounds like an amazing opportunity for your business, though
me...BS, 46 years old.
Divorced
nutmegkitty ( member #33882) posted at 2:05 PM on Sunday, June 2nd, 2013
(((((InnerLight))))))
Sending you peace...
Me - happy!
2 DDs
Very happily divorced from an NPD since 2013.
cayc ( member #21964) posted at 2:06 PM on Sunday, June 2nd, 2013
fadedrainbow ( member #9280) posted at 3:06 PM on Sunday, June 2nd, 2013
Congratulations IL, I hope the retreat goes well. I understand how you feel, I still cry and I am 8 years out from a May Dday. I hope you are feeling better today. ((((Inner Light))))
me: FBW D-Day May 2005 divorced December 2009
InnerLight (original poster member #19946) posted at 9:26 PM on Sunday, June 2nd, 2013
Thanks everyone. I so appreciate your companionship. You guys get this.
As a fellow member of the Class of 2008 I say SQUEEE for the publicity you are getting and BOO for the negative emotions.
Refuse to let that drown out your squee.
This is the right attitude and I'm doing my best.
I understand how you feel, I still cry and I am 8 years out from a May Dday.
8 years! OK that puts my crying after 5 yrs in perspective.
I am having my moments especially since I am alone all day out in the boondocks. Haven't gotten dressed yet and it's 1:24pm, still in my jammies as I feel really tired. A few crying attacks. No more than a minute, and no more than 3 so far.
I guess I am too busy prepping for my NPR interview on Monday and my FOX news appearance on Tuesday.
BS, 64 yearsD-day 6-2-08D after 20 years together
The journey from Armageddon to Amazing Life happens one step at a time. Don't ever give up!
gma56 ( member #19595) posted at 9:35 PM on Sunday, June 2nd, 2013
Busy is good ! PJs on a Sunday is better.
One thing we do learn during the infidelity/divorce process is not shove issues or emotions to the side. They will be back..it's just a bump today.
I'm so excited for your interview and appearance. That is a huge squee !
Can't wait to hear how it went this week ! We all know what it takes to get to this level of NB. You are going to do great !
Gma
BW-Divorced
It's my life now, my choices, my mistakes to make and my victories to celebrate. His choices made me free of liars and betrayers in my life. That is priceless.
newnormal ( member #21925) posted at 9:36 PM on Sunday, June 2nd, 2013
Impressive! Rock on!
<<<raises a glass and celebrating with you
BS 43 (me)
FWH 48
D-day 9/07
Dont retreat, reload.
"Pull that knife out of your back - and sever the fuel line to that bus you got thrown under" Bufffalo
NaiveAgain ( member #20849) posted at 12:35 AM on Monday, June 3rd, 2013
((((InnerLight))) and Congrats! How exciting! And of course you are worn out, emotionally AND physically. Doing a TV spot, while incredibly exciting and motivating, is also very stressful. You are mostly dealing with the after-effects of all the stress leading up to your performance.
Same thing happened to me after I gave my valedictorian speech. I had stressed about it for a few weeks, and it went great (I was even congratulated, twice, by a U.S. Senator), and you would think I would be uber-excited and pumped up afterwards, but honestly, I just got sick (a visit to the hospital for a UTI).
Even good stress is still stress, and with something as big as you just accomplished, take some well-deserved time off to relax, recuperate, and then bask in the glow of your success here. And also, we are more prone to flashbacks and sad memories (like with your X) when we are stressed. So allow the tears from that, and then focus on the positive, because that is really awesome!
Original WS D-Day July 10, 2008. Kept lying, he is gone.
New WS (2 EA's, no PA) 12-3-13
If you don't like where you are, then change it. You are not a tree.
idkam ( member #18375) posted at 7:38 PM on Monday, June 3rd, 2013
IL i'm so prou of you, congrats!!!
Sidenote; i never think about my DD and its been 5 yrs are so... Lol!!
2015 It's time to get Fit, Fine, and more Fabulous. Come and join me.
fraeuken ( member #30742) posted at 7:49 PM on Monday, June 3rd, 2013
Congratulations. Celebrate your success!
Temporarily independent with the whole world at my feet.
Confused1829 ( member #32729) posted at 9:14 PM on Monday, June 3rd, 2013
Good for you!!
I am sure it feels odd at times (as it does anytime we hit DDay) but look at how far you have come.
You should be very proud - congratulations!! Use this time to pat yourself on the back and recognize how awesome you are!
Me: fBW 31
DDays: May 31 2011 & Aug 6 2011. Divorced November 14, 2011 (No Kids)
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