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ok so its been a crazy few weeks filled with passionate fight that then turn into passionate loving making. they yelling and screaming and throwing stuff and my threats that its too much and need to leave .him not letting me out of his arms begging for me to hold him and not to leave.Its all very crazy over the top soap opera in our house with betrayal , passion, disgust, love and confusion and weirdly enough i get caught up in the drama that i enjoy seeing him raise hell because he is fighting for US then bow out the fight and come to my feet scared out his mind that ill leave. then what follows is the i have to have you baby it can only be you in my life and i gladly take it all in because it makes for a wild ride....but maybe not right after i but later into the day i feel numb again like im only alive when where just about to tear into each other then collide into each other getting wrapped into our sheets and then left laying there laughing and sweating just staring at each other wow. I dont know how long it will last but im uneasy why i can feel numb and only really be there during sex and fighting

I think the numb feeling is depression. I have that off and on too. I know what you mean about the mind blowing loving. I feel so alive and loved, and then I tend to pick fights, but I don't mean to, I just need to get all the emotions out.

The whole A thing is like getting on a roller coaster that you can't get off. And you didn't even buy the ticket. Ugh