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AFrayedKnot (original poster member #36622) posted at 12:17 PM on Sunday, June 16th, 2013
I am feeling really trapped today. No matter whether we stay in R or go our separate ways, we will always be connected through our DS3. There is no option for complete freedom.
He was not planned. He was not an "oops". He was conceived through lies and secrets.
About a month after a confrontation about AP#3, my fWS decided to stop taking the pill and not tell me. She says she was not intending to get pregnant. She says it was not manipulative. But here we are.
It could have been a relationship changing event. Bringing us together. Truly becoming a family, a team. But no she continued contact with AP#2 and AP#3 and two years later added AP#4.
Sorry for the rant. Happy Fucking Fathers Day to me!!!
PS This has nothing to do with our beautiful DS. I love him with every bit of my heart and soul. I am grateful for him every day.
BS 48fWS 44 (SurprisinglyOkay)DsD DSA whole bunch of shit that got a lot worse before it got better."Knowing is half the battle"
wifehad5 ( Administrator #15162) posted at 12:24 PM on Sunday, June 16th, 2013
FBH - 52 FWW - 53 (BrokenRoad)2 kids 17 & 22The people you do your life with shape the life you live
AFrayedKnot (original poster member #36622) posted at 12:49 PM on Sunday, June 16th, 2013
BS 48fWS 44 (SurprisinglyOkay)DsD DSA whole bunch of shit that got a lot worse before it got better."Knowing is half the battle"
painpaingoaway ( member #27196) posted at 12:55 PM on Sunday, June 16th, 2013
I'm so sorry you are suffering Chico.
((((Chico))))
D-Day June 2009
Watch my movie: "My wayward husband's adventures in STD land":
Episode 1: youtu.be/9Jv0-d_CdYc
Episode 2: http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=8Tz822H82Gk
sisoon ( Moderator #31240) posted at 6:24 PM on Sunday, June 16th, 2013
fBH (me) - on d-day: 66, Married 43, together 45, same sex apDDay - 12/22/2010Recover'd and R'edYou don't have to like your boundaries. You just have to set and enforce them.
karmahappens ( member #35846) posted at 6:37 PM on Sunday, June 16th, 2013
I am sorry you are feeling so lousy today.
((((hugs))))
“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom”
Anaïs Nin
Me: 45
Him: 47
Dday 8/2007
We have R'd
5454real ( member #37455) posted at 8:16 PM on Sunday, June 16th, 2013
sorry you're here today brother. focus on your son today.
strength
BH 58, WW 49
DS 31(Mine),SD 29,SS 28(Hers),DS 16 Ours, DGS 11, DGD 8, DGS 3
D=Day #1 5/04EA (Rugswept)
D-Day #2 3/10/12, TT til 3/13/12
Married 13yrs
"I have no love for a friend who loves in words alone."
― Sophocle
jo2love ( member #31528) posted at 9:30 PM on Sunday, June 16th, 2013
Neithan ( member #35924) posted at 9:40 PM on Sunday, June 16th, 2013
Wow. That takes betrayal to a new level.
At least you can enjoy your son. You can choose to focus on that today.
Me: BH
Her: WW
D-Day: 2/19/2010
Married 1981
That which does not kill me makes me more irritable
AFrayedKnot (original poster member #36622) posted at 2:41 AM on Monday, June 17th, 2013
So obviously I woke up miserable today. I must have been processing something in my sleep or dreaming and not remember it. But I woke up in a really bad spot.
After I wrote this post we talked pretty deep for about an hour, read painpaingoaway's poem in general, got the boy up, and went about our plans (Pic in New Picture thread F/G).
It ended up being a good day today. The past did not rule my life today. It had me for a couple of hours but that was it.
Thank You all for the (((hugs))) and support. The email notifications throughout the day helped a lot. 
[This message edited by Chicho at 10:02 PM, June 16th (Sunday)]
BS 48fWS 44 (SurprisinglyOkay)DsD DSA whole bunch of shit that got a lot worse before it got better."Knowing is half the battle"
catlover50 ( member #37154) posted at 11:20 AM on Monday, June 17th, 2013
Dday -9/23/2012
Reconciled
wifehad5 ( Administrator #15162) posted at 2:30 PM on Monday, June 17th, 2013
The past did not rule my life today. It had me for a couple of hours but that was it.
It's a good feeling being able to tell the past to fuck off, isn't it?
FBH - 52 FWW - 53 (BrokenRoad)2 kids 17 & 22The people you do your life with shape the life you live
SoVerySadNow ( member #36711) posted at 2:53 PM on Monday, June 17th, 2013
((((Chico))))
Infidelity affects all corners of our lives, heads, and hearts.
I'm glad the happiness of being with your DS put your day right.
Me:BW
Him:WH
D-day(s),after years of TT and Gaslighting was Labor Day Weekend 2012, continuing for a week after. *Dammit! More TT 3/9/13
Really trending toward D- planning about it is my "happy place" now.
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