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sadallthetime (original poster member #26845) posted at 11:35 PM on Saturday, June 29th, 2013
I am 4 years out and although things are much better I still struggle. After TT, more DD's and lying for 6 months FWH has done everything to help me heal.
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Me-BW 60 now, FWH 64 now, 2 adult kids
DD#1 7-21-09 11 yr. affair w OW 30 yrs. younger who is an "escort". DD#2 7-23-09 Long Term EA with mutual friend DD#3 10-3-09 1 1/2 yr PA with escort #2 DD#4 10 yr. EA w/old GF
rachelc ( member #30314) posted at 12:46 AM on Sunday, June 30th, 2013
Thank you for posting that. While some of it rings true, and at this time, there isn't much punishment going on, there are a couple things I will never forgive and I don't feel badly about it.
Does it mean we don't have true love? I don't think so. It may mean we don't have 100% true unconditional love. To forgive a couple of instances where I was mind- fucked feels like I would not be honoring myself and the pain that girl went through. It would say to me that what I went through was "ok." It wasn't and I know that's not what she's saying but that's how I define firgiveness.
I love him less for doing those things to me. So be it. I will settle for less then as there is too much good stuff to give up. That's real life. I don't think of these things often and I don't bring them up but I will never forget them. And there will be a piece of me he doesn't get because of it. Actions, meet consequences.....
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