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Not my usual taste, but ever since I've been in R, I can't help but listen to this every now and then.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKqgE8z7PcA

On my D-day, it was

Alice In Chains - Down in a hole on loop pretty much. But, I ruined that song, or she did, actually.

I found a song by Bruno Mars called If I knew. My fWH says its how he feels.

Stay by Rihanna. I listened to that for hours in the bath tub crying my eyes out after DDay. It resonates for me and my WH both. I have a feeling that we won't be able to listen to it at all in the not too distant future. Too many bad memories attached to it now.

Yeah it still hurts... More than he knows.

Whatever it Takes by Lifehouse

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kSJONe_ULII

She said, "If we're gonna make this work, you gotta let me inside, even though it hurts." Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see. She said, "Like it or not, it's the way it's gotta be. You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me."

Landslide by Dixie Chicks

Ironically, 3 days before Dday and our anniversary my husband heard for the first time WANTED by Hunter Hayes. He called me into his home office and played the song for me. My gut reaction to this beautiful song was....so are you playing this for me or are you playing this because you are thinking of someone else....

Some of you know my story....a was 4 years long, I actually suspected for about a year and 1/2 but was afraid to ask because I didn't want to know the truth. Hubby played this with me suspecting, and really knowing by this time there was someone else sharing our marriage. My gut reaction was really.....and you are playing this song for me why???? I almost even came clean and asked hi if he was having an A when the song finished and who was that song really meant for. What stopped me was that our son was sitting in the room with us at the time.

Since this initial playing of the song,and subsequent discovery of the A and the hard hellish work we have been through to get to R, I have again asked him why he played that song for me when he hadn't ended his A. His answer has been liberating,not only for the song but for my heart. He said that he needed and wanted to sing that song to me. It was all the things he knew he needed to do for me because that's how he felt about me. His self loathing has almost eaten him alive. Had he played that song after Dday i don't think I would have ever believed his story. But the fact that he already felt the things in the song even before Dday shoed me we had hope.

T

Ps....it is now our song BTW