We all know this is a roller coaster and there are ups and downs, but I was really shocked the other day when I realized I forgot D-day for a few hours. A fantastic up swing!
Here's what happened: I made an appointment which will occur on D-Day. Didn't think about the significance of the date when I made the appointment. Later, I talked about the appointment with fWH and STILL didn't get the significance. It wasn't until hours later, when I was falling asleep, that I realized I had thought about that date twice and hadn't recalled that it was D-day. I am proud of myself, if that makes sense.
I told fWH about it the next morning. I thought he would take it as a positive step forward and he did. Even better, he knew the significance of the date when I mentioned it the day before. That is good news for me because he isn't a date person. I had warned him a few weeks ago that I might not be a great mood that day and he remembered it.
Here's the best part: I am not one year out yet. I forgot before the first anti-versary even happened.
I am taking this as the most positive evidence to date that I am healing. It is great because I was feeling so depressed for so long. Only the past 3-4 weeks have I felt like things are looking up.
For anyone new to this....I will say that the dreaded TIME did have a lot to do with getting here. Also, a remorseful fWH who will talk whenever I need. And, finally, this forum has been invaluable. I also found a good IC that I started seeing a few months ago.
Thanks for listening, everyone. I am sure there will be a dip on this roller coaster coming up for me, but I feel much more certain the future will be okay.
