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click4it (original poster member #209) posted at 5:08 AM on Tuesday, September 3rd, 2013
Why the heck would I want to do that you might ask?
Well, Sunday was a day that I went through my father's things - to look for a document my uncle had asked me to look for. My mom said "don't do it" and tell him you couldn't find it. I said no, I will be fine.
But of course moms are usually right.
I cried for a good part of the day. Anyway, in the process I found my wedding tape that my Dad had a copy of. I had been looking for tapes that would have my father in them and here was one right in my hands....
I debated on whether or not watch it and decided to go for it. I did get to see my father and hear a little bit of his voice, not much though and that was disappointing.
What I noticed was that I cried more at seeing my father and had very few feelings of seeing my ex-h. Yes, I was in awe of how young I looked and how it was the promise a "new chapter" in my life. I saw how secure I looked and remember how it felt. I saw how skinny I once was. 
I hadn't watched that tape since 1995 - the year I got married.
Me: 45
Two boys: 20 and 17
Divorced 12-13-05
d-day 10-02-01
Laughter will cure life's ills. Have you had your laugh today?
Jrazz ( member #31349) posted at 5:11 AM on Tuesday, September 3rd, 2013
"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest." - Deeply Scared's mom
persevere ( member #31468) posted at 5:41 AM on Tuesday, September 3rd, 2013
That would be tough for any of us. ((Hugs)) :
DDay:2011
Status: D 2011
Remarried to a kind and wonderful man - 2017
Above all, be the heroine, not the victim. - Nora Ephron
It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.
- J. K.
gma56 ( member #19595) posted at 6:05 AM on Tuesday, September 3rd, 2013
I knew I was going to be OK when I went though all the wedding pictures and saved items, dress included, I was OK.
I too have a few special people in the pictures that have since past. Those are the ones I kept.
Hugs Click4it. I've lost both of my parents years ago but I grab and hold the memories dearly.
BW-Divorced
It's my life now, my choices, my mistakes to make and my victories to celebrate. His choices made me free of liars and betrayers in my life. That is priceless.
click4it (original poster member #209) posted at 7:29 AM on Tuesday, September 3rd, 2013
jrazz, preserve and gma ty for the hugs.
gma i'm so sorry... 
(((((hugs back)))))
Me: 45
Two boys: 20 and 17
Divorced 12-13-05
d-day 10-02-01
Laughter will cure life's ills. Have you had your laugh today?
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