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blue8888 (original poster new member #40896) posted at 1:39 AM on Sunday, October 13th, 2013
I'm sad to have had to find this group but in my situation, I am so glad I did. Your support & encouragement means so much. I am trying so hard to do 180 everyday and I did for the last few days. Just had a moment of weakness and snapped. I try to ignore all the times he pulls out his phone to talk to her but it got to me today. Yelling at him or even having a conversation about it at all is so pointless. He is so irrational and in such a deep fog, it's insane. Only good thing is all my feelings for him are going away. I see things more clearly now that he was not the person I thought I married. Back to 180 though. I have made the guest room or my room now into my space. I already moved most of my clothes in there and when he offered for me to have the master back, at least for now I told him no because my room feels like my safe space.
Me- BW 31, WH- 29
M 11 yrs Together 13
2 kids (special needs)
Last Dday 9/26/13 EA w/ 19 yr old OW, too many prior EAs to list, one he kissed
Divorcing
My value hasn't decreased based on his inability to see my worth.
blue8888 (original poster new member #40896) posted at 5:53 AM on Monday, October 14th, 2013
I know I deserve better and I know one day I will be happier but damn this hurts so much. I don't want to be so sad anymore. Just needed to whine I guess. I have to be strong for my kids all day and then at night after they go to sleep, the sadness creeps in and I feel so alone.
Me- BW 31, WH- 29
M 11 yrs Together 13
2 kids (special needs)
Last Dday 9/26/13 EA w/ 19 yr old OW, too many prior EAs to list, one he kissed
Divorcing
My value hasn't decreased based on his inability to see my worth.
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