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Ashland13 ( member #38378) posted at 5:11 PM on Sunday, October 20th, 2013
Yes, first of all.
But...doesn't having resentment keep us in that box of spending time on the A, in it's own way?
It's another negative thought to bring us down and it's definitely one place I'm stuck in, too. But I don't want the resentment anymore, I don't want any more thoughts of him, period.
I will say that one of my fiercest resentments is the time I spent loving a man who no longer loved me, who was so awful and insulting to me, but who didn't even tell me. I feel like that part held me longer than some of the other things, like digging for information and things.
Ashland 13
A person is a person, no matter how small. -Dr. Suess
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ShatteredLove00 ( new member #40830) posted at 12:53 AM on Monday, October 21st, 2013
I will say that one of my fiercest resentments is the time I spent loving a man who no longer loved me, who was so awful and insulting to me, but who didn't even tell me.
How true this is. Most of the time he says he always loved me, but has admitted every once in awhile that he blamed me for his unhappiness (even though he can't name what I was doing wrong), that he didn't "love me as completely as he does now" (So fucking a prostitute made him all of a sudden discover a new dimension to love?) and that he didn't consider sex to be an intimate display of love (despite that he had only ever had it with me and is now trying to convince me it's a way to show love and dedication to me now...okay...). I feel like a fool for always being desperately in love with him.
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Me: BS (29) Him: SAWH (30)
HS Sweethearts, WAS each other's 1st/onlys. 1 child & 8 months pregnant when he hired prostitute/confessed.
D-Day: September 1, 2013
Shocked, disgusted, and struggling.
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