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It's been years since I was on any time of Anti Depressant or Anxiety medication (since having kids), so I'm obviously OK taking this stuff, I have no idea why it's taken me this long to realize/accept that I need their help again.

I first sought help about 15 years ago because out of the blue I was having anxiety attacks. Anyone who has ever had them can relate to how scary they can be, I thought I was going to die. It's like having what seems to be heart attacks, regularly. Anyway, it's coming back. The last few months with H and I have been especially high-emotion times, and I am just not able to control my physical reactions any longer. I'm already on meds for ADD, but thinking I need some sort of anti depressant/anxiety meds, and sadly, I think I still might need Xanax, I've obviously let this go to far.

So today, I overcome my ADD tendency to put shit off until later, and OMG - the first appointment he has isn't until Dec. Friday 13th! Um ok, not really going to work, although I had them make the appt anyway and put me on the call if someone cancels (which she informed me hasn't moved in over 2 weeks, yay me!)

So my question is, WTF should I do?

No way I can wait that long. We are to the point that I either have to absolutely not speak to him, or run the very likely risk that things will spiral out of control very quickly (internally for me). This happens even when he's not being a total douche, my reaction is totally my own problem and I need to deal with it.

I can't go completely NC since we live together with 4 very small children, and I can't move out before Dec. 13th (no matter how much I'd like to at this point); I need to figure this out.

I'm sure I'm not the first person who can't get into their psychiatrist as soon as they need to. I don't want to switch over to a whole other practice (and honestly I'd probably run into this problem with most docs as a new patient), any chance my GP will be any help? I have a regular that knows me pretty well and was the last one to give me Lexapro 9 years ago. She also prescribed me Ritalin, but when I didn't like that particular med, admitted anything else was out of her scope and referred me to the psych. (Which I appreciate and think is the right call!)

I'm frustrated just typing this, God my anxiety is high. I don't know if I have a question any longer, lol. Maybe just some, been there done that :) Crossing fingers that she'll be ok to prescribe me some maintenance anxiety and situational anxiety medication, while I'm on ADD meds. I worry it's the ADD meds that will be the part of this medication equation that will make her uncomfortable, and I'm not sure it's a good idea for me to drop them.

I guess if I can't figure it out with my GP, I'll call back the psych's office and see what in the world they recommend...maybe they'll have me see someone else in the practice?

Please someone tell me I'm not the only one that seriously doesn't have their shit together?!?

[This message edited by WoundedOpus at 11:23 AM, October 17th (Thursday)]

Call your GP. They can help. Even your ob/gyn can help.

Hell, I'm here because I got distracted....

What's up with not calling your GP? If she won't prescribe an AD, maybe she can call your shrink and get you in earlier.

Are you ambivalent about meds now? Is that why you're not calling your GP?

Call your GP - at least that way you can talk to someone about meds.

One ADDer to another:

You sound like you have your shit together.

Open up your contact list now.

Find your GP's number now.

Dial her number now.

Make an appointment when the phone is answered.

And thanks for your post - it reminds me I need to go to my mailbox and see if some meds have arrived as promised.

[This message edited by sisoon at 11:29 AM, October 17th (Thursday)]

See if you can find a different psych? Or tell them it's an emergency, there are children involved.

I agree, GP is the way to go. As someone who has struggled with anxiety and depression since I was 13 (well earlier, but diagnosed then) sometimes you just are so out of whack with your brain chemicals you need some assistance. They have really awesome drugs out now too. I'm one of the ones that reacts weird to them, so I stick with the oldies, but I know a ton of people that have been helped a lot.

If you can't do MC till Dec, is there any way of you getting some IC? Sometimes they are limited in people to do MC but they have others available for IC. That could help too.

Good luck.

I couldn't get in with a psych until November (this was back in August), so I had my GP order me an AD and Xanax, and I started with a therapist. Its worked great for me so far.

LOL sisoon, needed the chuckle. As for ambivalence towards the drugs? I was for quite some time, but over the weekend I finally made the decision it is needed. I'm pretty proud of myself that it only took 4 days, I even called the gutter guy and requested 2 quotes for lawn service online, I am on a roll

I called and made an appointment with my GP before reading the responses here, scheduled for next Tuesday, yay me!

I have never taken Xanax before, so wasn't sure if it was something routinely given with other anxiety meds, and her reluctance to deal in medication she feels is best prescribed by a pysch had me wanting to formulate a back up plan ahead of time in case she was uncomfortable. My level of need then versus now is having me think I need some additional help. Coming up with the next step was also to stave off feeling a bit dejected if it turns out she couldn't help as much as I'd like.

I didn't think of her calling the psych for me, good idea. One I should have thought of since she's done that before with a surgeon.

If I still need the help of the psych after this appt, I'll just call them back and see what they recommend if I push to be seen earlier. The thought of trying to find another practice makes my brain go numb, I hate to doctor shop and hopefully I won't have to.

headdesk, I certainly need IC, but MC is off the table. I have no interest in MC until my H does some intense IC himself and shows serious commitment to change (which sadly will be about the time hell freezes over). Next on my list is getting to the many things that need to be in place for me to get out of here.

Thanks for the support! Crossing fingers that I've worried and prepared for something that turns out to be a non-issue