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Since latest dday I have been dealing with excessively intense headaches. I mean the kind that knock you on your ass and make you wince at everything from daylight to cats meowing.

Anyone else go through this little spurt of joy?

I did! I had migraines (tension headaches) and the muscles in my neck and shoulders hurt! I also had jaw and teeth pain because I began clenching my teeth while I was awake and while I was asleep!

Fantastic! One more item for which to be oh so grateful. I sooooo glad his widdle piddle stick was so much more important to him than his family.

Infidelity... that gift that keeps on giving!

Insane headaches, vomiting, extreme exhaustion, panic attacks that had me in the floor, eye twitches.. You name it. Most are done now and a lot came after the first month when things started to settle down. But yes- our bodies can only hold on to so much stress.

Try to take some time for you, just resting and make sure you are eating right.

I hope you feel better. Hugs :)

I got some weird, irregular heartbeats in the months right after DD. Since I wanted to die anyhow, I didn't go to the doctor, and it's pretty much gone away. I also had bad stomach trouble and took a course of Prilosec. That's better now, too. I have had migraines for years. Come to think of it, they started around the time of H's first A. As someone else said, your body can only take so much stress.

I had some kind of intense adrenaline response -- my skin felt like it was on fire and I pooped out everything in my bowels -- constantly. Lost a lot of weight that way. This went on for 2 months maybe?

Anyway, I've had another trauma (not related to the A or my M) and I've got it again. Kind of PTSD-like, I guess. Yay.

I hate him. I know it isn't healthy, and it isn't positive. But right now, at this particular moment I am positive that I positively hate him.

I hate him. I know it isn't healthy, and it isn't positive. But right now, at this particular moment I am positive that I positively hate him.

(((whiteflower99))) I know that feeling well!

Whiteflower, I know how you feel but the saddest thing is that if you didn't care about him so much you couldn't hate him on this level. My WH's A was a long time ago now but I still mourn the person I was before it AND the man I used to think he was. I miss him and I miss me. Im still looking for both of us.

Betrayal changes everything you ever thought about your partner and yourself. I never knew how closely aligned love and hate are. I thought it was another cliche but its so painfully true. Half my pain and physical stress stemmed from this confusion. I couldnt separate my grief from my anger with him so it was doubly intense. one crippling emotion at a time would have been bearable but its a double whammy!.

Often I wished that he had died rather than have screwed around. I entertained offing him many times but but that would just have made HIM a victim! And I would have felt guilty while missing him. Wishing him dead instead of caught cheating sounds wicked but it would have left me able to grieve without the anger and I could have treasured the memories of him. Now Im still sifting through our history looking for more evidence and answers and its trashing even the good times. Thats really tragic. Hatred is time consuming and poisonous and confuses the issues. Im still angry but I dont hate him. Im aiming for total detachment but Im not there yet. Be good to yourself and dont get ill like I did. There just is is no understanding why people do these things- were just animals at the end of the day. Protect yourself from an extreme emotional response if you can. Saying you hate someone gives them too much power over you. Take power back. Loathe what he did and work on whether you still want him in your life- for you.

Hair falling out

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IBS on a rampage

My face looks 10 years older

Weight loss then weight gain

Anxiety attacks with chest pain

Fighting agoraphobia

Depression

A tremor in my hands