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therun (original poster member #32086) posted at 2:41 PM on Wednesday, November 20th, 2013
Howdy everyone, its been a minute since I swung here to check in.
This was the first place I went to when I found out my ex wife cheated the first time.. and the second... and the third. When I tossed her out (figuretively) I hit the self destruction button.
Three years later, after failing out of college. Ignoring my PTSD from a long stay in Iraq. Finding out I couldn't drown the pain away with booze. The feeling of being alive was to short and never enough with cocaine. Accepting that the happiness I found with acid wasn't real. I tried to hang myself.
Fortunately I failed physics in college. My mass + acceleration from the drop > the strength of the branch. The thing landed on my head, the next day I went to a shrink meeting and when she saw the marks on my neck she called an ambulance.
A few months later, a stay in treatment plus a PTSD program and a new relationship and I feel great. The legal troubles should go away with time and I now have an amazing woman to hold my hand.
Deeply Scared ( Administrator #2) posted at 3:19 PM on Wednesday, November 20th, 2013
Thanks for the update...I'm really glad things are starting to fall into place for you 
"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest." My Mom:)
My tolerance for stupid shit is getting less and less.
HFSSC ( member #33338) posted at 3:55 PM on Wednesday, November 20th, 2013
Wow. I am very glad you did not succeed in your efforts to destroy yourself. I have been there. I'm glad your counselor took you seriously and got help for you.
Life can be beautiful. You are absolutely worth it. Keep on living, man.
Me, 56
Him, 48 (JMSSC)
Married 26 years. Reconciled.
sisoon ( Moderator #31240) posted at 7:30 PM on Wednesday, November 20th, 2013
^^^ This. I'm glad you're finding your strength and joy.
fBH (me) - on d-day: 66, Married 43, together 45, same sex apDDay - 12/22/2010Recover'd and R'edYou don't have to like your boundaries. You just have to set and enforce them.
simplydevastated ( member #25001) posted at 7:34 PM on Wednesday, November 20th, 2013
Hey therun! Thanks for checking in. I'm sorry you feel down that spiral, but I'm glad that everything is finally on the up-and-up for you and that you found someone to walk alongside you.
Me - BS, 40 (I'm not old...I'm vintage)
Two Wonderful children - DS11, DD8
Getting my ducks in a row for divorce... finally (4+ D-Days too many - listed in profile.)
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