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Thank you tushnurse! Truly appreciate your words of encouragement. I couldn't agree more!

So far today is a good day:) would love to stay this way. Someday I will.

Do you ever wish you could be hypnotized to forget the past?

I so need to break away from this. I just can't find the strength to do it.

This is so hard.

Within the last year he had tried to convince me that he a different Better man. A man of God. .. (Which he Better be careful he is not struck) I found out about his many PAS a year ago and while he's trying to convince he's changed I also know that he has hit on 2 ow.

I'm so tired of this. I've come to realize that he is a very insecure selfish person. Always wanting to be recognized, the center of attention.

I feel I'm almost to that point of letting go. I just need to build a little more strength.

I know i probably sound pathetic. I hate myself for being this person.

[This message edited by needadvise at 2:58 PM, May 28th (Wednesday)]

Dday#6. I'm not sure how much of this I can take. Somedays I just wish god would take me out of this miserable nightmare. No matter which way I drive, North South East or west there are nightmares everywhere. He's been around so much. How could I have been so blind? He disgust me!

And now I'm suppose to believe that he loves me and is never going to let me go? Can somebody explain to me how the hell that works?

I am a f#$@*^g mess.

It truly irritates the hell out of me how a person that you love and spent years with can be the 1 person who hurts you so badly. How do they love you and sleep around like it's nothing. No conscience what so ever!