After 10 months, I found that the R I thought we were having was false, I discovered the other phone that he was using to contact the OWs, and though all the texts that had been erased, he failed to erase the pictures he had taken of himself and his genitals. I came down on him hard and told him how angry I was, that I had been turning myself inside out for months trying to take responsibility for my role in our marriage problems, to change and become better,and he hadn't done a damn thing except go deeper underground with his transgressions.
He woke up this morning and told me he wants a divorce. He says he doesn't want to "feel these bad feelings anymore."
Translation : "I don't want to own up to what I have done and do the work it will take to amend it."
I feel like I have been hit by a truck. I try to keep telling myself a quote from Viktor Frankl, "“The one thing you can’t take away from me is the way I choose to respond to what you do to me. The last of one’s freedoms is to choose one’s attitude in any given circumstance.”
I want to make the right choices. I don't want my life and my children's lives to be destroyed by this man's selfishness. If there are any Christians out there, please pray for me.
Married 17 yrs, 4 children, WH has had multiply, varied affairs, I am trying to put one foot in front of the other and believe God is with me.
