Your words stuck with me....I too lost the fight to save my marriage...we signed D yesterday....
WH left me a year ago....and only spoke to me last week...house business...and disappeared again...he has zero respect...or consideration...hes making this as cruel as possible...
That's my point....I was wanting my marriage...and it was a bad marriage...I was wanting to create a new marriage...with a bad partner....there was no hope...
If your WH was going to change, he would have...and would have by now...I don't believe denial is that long...getting away with it is...they know...
I thought Wh would finally get it...expecially after filing for D...many return to try...WH did not...I now thank him for that...HE is still the same wayward...IT was my hopium that keeps hanging on... I lived in depression...and sadness.
NOt to sound cruel, but its very common for them to be nicer, when they see the severity of the situation...WHy were they not nicer, from DDay..not in spurts...not when it necessary to stay...
He could have changed this outcome...and he chose not to. Same as when he chose to cheat...he makes bad choices.
I too have felt confused....should I try harder, should I go after him...should I do something...I have done it all....and zero results...I feel sad...it is sad...that you can give so much...and they just cant.
Cant, wont, doesn't, over, done ...these describe WH..
Acceptance is mine. I too have abandonment issues...I too panic...I would rather have something, anything, then be alone...I just recently got this book....I didn't take the advice seriously at first....when you see so many of us feel exactly the same from rejection...it has to be explored...I will read it several times...its a big thing to accept. it is me.
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