Thank you so much to everyone who has continued to offer me advice. I've had a lot happen over the last few weeks and lost access to a computer for a while, so I wasn't able to check in here.
I know that I can't change if I'm doing it for anyone other than myself. If that was the case, I would have changed a long time ago.
I'm working with a new sponsor. He's someone I've really admired in the program from the first few meetings I ever went to. I finally decided to just ask if he would sponsor me. And he said yes.
I've been working with a new IC who I like, but I ended up having to leave my job, which is where my insurance comes from. I'm not sure if he will take new insurance that I get. But I like him well enough at the moment since he seems to actually understand sex addiction and relationships. He never blames my wife for anything, which I like.
I've started to drop some of the anger, but it's been popping up now and again. Mostly in my frustration with myself. Last night and this morning have been particularly bad, but I'm going to be making a separate thread entirely for that.
