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My kids went back to school today. As soon as they were gone we "took advantage of some alone time". I started to trigger about halfway through, something I rarely ever do anymore. I tried pushing it into the back of my mind and that is when it hit me. Kisses trigger me! His mouth triggers me! The sex part bothers me, but no where near as much as the thought of him kissing her does. I keep remembering the movie Pretty Woman. The scene where she says No kissing, kissing is more personal, more intimate. Any animal can have sex, but only humans kiss. This is a huge problem for me because I can literally kiss my H for hours at a time, I have always loved kissing him. I have been known to suggest we have a night of just making out like teenagers, of course teenagers of the past not modern day teens. So, what do I do now? How do I get over this? I was able to push it back once I figured out what was triggering me. He worked all night so I haven't said anything about it to him yet. He also will be working tonight, so I am not going to have a chance to really talk to him about it until maybe tomorrow afternoon. Maybe I will just write it in my journal for him to read tomorrow...

Is anyone else more bothered by something like this than the actual act of sex? I am just talking about physical stuff here. The more emotional stuff.. talking all the time, lying to me, etc. that is on another level all together.

Absolutely. For me it is holding hands. I hate that he held her hand. Totally intimate.

Yeah, I get it. My wife first asked her AP when they started chatting if he was a kisser, because a good kiss can lead to an orgasm. She never told me that. Apparently kissing was something very important to her that she fantasized doing with others. It's a trigger for me too.

Absolutely the hand holding - when I asked him if he did that and he said yes - I sank to my knees in physical pain. I just felt he had stripped me of everything.

Yes, kissing is worse. If you ever watch porn it's just sex, very little kissing. It's just sex. But kissing is passion and romance and intimacy. And it's almost worse than fucking. Fucking is animal and primal. Kissing is emotional.

My WH spent the night with OW, it was 1 night. But all I can think of is the intimacy of sleeping next to another woman all night. She was all over him, caressing him, touching him, kissing him. She was "in love". My WH says he was there for the sex and she was a piece of meat. That makes me feel better. But I'm not sure I believe it. I keep asking him questions about that over and over again to confirm it. He said he didn't like kissing her and the sex sucked. I keep asking questions over and over again to make sure he's telling me the truth and not something I just want to hear.