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notquiteoverit (original poster member #32919) posted at 9:44 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
We are more than 2.5 years from DDay and have mostly reconciled. He has been working hard, and the OW has never been heard from. But, there is a part of me that nags from time to time that he has not told me everything. So, now I have a means to find some things on his Facebook that I may not have seen before. But, doing this requires unblocking the OW. I am debating whether or not to tell him that I am going to do this. On one hand, I don't want to give him any opportunity to delete things. On the other hand, I want to do my part and communicate honestly with him. What do you think?
Me - BS 50
Him - WS 49
SOW - 52 destitute loser
D-day 1/28/11
pewpewpew ( member #38116) posted at 9:47 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
What do you think he hasn't been honest about?
BS - 32
DDay 1: July 2012 - EA with COW
DDay 2: March 2015; same COW
Fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me twice, pack your shit and get out.
Fool me twice, now what?!?!
Jrazz ( member #31349) posted at 9:49 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
I think that unblocking OW is giving her a window back into your life. I don't like that idea.
I'm still not 100% sure I've gotten the whole story from Crazz, but weighing that against crack-ass COW having ANY access to my family, I'd just as soon leave things be. I got ENOUGH information for me. I think.
Here's the other thing - I'm pretty FB savvy and I cannot fathom what unblocking the OW is going to give you access to. Certainly nothing historical - unblocking doesn't make conversations reappear or anything.
So let's take a step back. Is the urge to snoop coming from more than 2 year old doubts, or are there new flags? If there's nothing new, I wouldn't want to see you crack this pandora's box back open. Unblocking will send her a signal, and she will read it as "I'm interested in seeing what you're up to."
I say don't to it. Step away from the FB.
((((notquiteoverit)))
"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest." - Deeply Scared's mom
Truly ( member #40715) posted at 10:09 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
I agree with Jrazz.
Fb is a minefield and no one needs to open that gate once it's closed.
But is something putting up a red flag for you today? Why after so long?
Or is today just a triggery kinda day?
I'm very cagey about FB... gives those women/men an opportunity to keep just trying to open that bloomin' gate a crack...grrr
There are dark shadows on the earth, but its lights are stronger in the contrast.
Charles Dickens
notquiteoverit (original poster member #32919) posted at 10:17 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
Hi Pew - I'm not sure. I just keep getting this gut feeling that something doesn't add up.
Me - BS 50
Him - WS 49
SOW - 52 destitute loser
D-day 1/28/11
notquiteoverit (original poster member #32919) posted at 10:22 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
Thanks everyone. This is something I've been having a hard time with. I'm one of those that needs to have every minute detail. Just like so many of you, I was trickle-truthed and fed a lot of changing stories. So, now I've verified everything he's told me, but my gut is screaming that there is something else. It's been screaming for a long time, actually.
Me - BS 50
Him - WS 49
SOW - 52 destitute loser
D-day 1/28/11
Jrazz ( member #31349) posted at 10:29 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
I get the ambient screaming gut, I really do.
Something that's really important for healing as a BS is re-learning the difference between insecurity and legitimate cause for concern.
Of COURSE we have been driven crazy in terms of what's real v. lies told to us, but there comes a point where we just have to hope that we've made the best judgement call possible and know that our feet are as firmly planted in the ground.
So really dig right now - is it screaming because you are conditioned by the TT, or is it screaming because of details that don't match, or current wayward behaviors presenting in your H?
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"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest." - Deeply Scared's mom
Exit Wounds ( member #32811) posted at 10:37 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
I'm not sure. I just keep getting this gut feeling that something doesn't add up.
Red Flag! I would do anything and everything to check and either put my mind at ease or fight the monster at hand.
Keep us posted.
Exit WoundsH of 17 years got gf pregnant, left our kids 9 & 11 and we never saw him again. -His choice.
notquiteoverit (original poster member #32919) posted at 11:15 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
JRazz - Part of it is the trickle-truth, but he has always been a lousy liar, and there are some aspects of his story that just don't click. And, there were a lot of "I don't remembers". No wayward behaviors anymore, he has done a complete 360 from what he was.
Me - BS 50
Him - WS 49
SOW - 52 destitute loser
D-day 1/28/11
Kelany ( member #34755) posted at 11:17 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
I only got gut feelings...when there were reasons.
BS - Me
SA/FWH Him
DDay 1 - Jul 11
DDay 2 - Jul 12
R Dec 12
Former 80s Icon wishful thinking
notquiteoverit (original poster member #32919) posted at 11:20 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
Exactly what I am afraid of SamanthaBaker.
Me - BS 50
Him - WS 49
SOW - 52 destitute loser
D-day 1/28/11
Jrazz ( member #31349) posted at 11:26 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest." - Deeply Scared's mom
notquiteoverit (original poster member #32919) posted at 11:40 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
I'm not sure Jrazz. I'm very sceptical of polygraph results. Maybe something to think about though.
Me - BS 50
Him - WS 49
SOW - 52 destitute loser
D-day 1/28/11
surviving1963 ( member #40393) posted at 11:43 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
So sorry....looking back the one thing I could always trust was my "gut feeling". I hope for you everything is OK, but remember you ALWAYS DESERVE THE TRUTH - 100% OF IT
Me: 54
WH: 54
Married 34 years.
D-Days 3-4-12, 8-19-12
4 sons, 3 daughters
9 grandkids
D final Oct 2015
Razor ( member #16345) posted at 11:47 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
Snoop. If you dont you will continue to wonder and that will drive you mad.
Trust your gut. If you feel something is wrong or missing there probably is.
As to taking the high road and playing by the rules. Your WH probably is NOT playing by the rules. And if you are playing by rules and the other is not then you are at a big disadvantage.
Forgive and forget = Relive and regret.
Hope in reality is the worst of all evils because it prolongs the torments of man.
Friedrich Nietzsche
Lostinthismess ( member #39210) posted at 11:48 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
What exactly is it you think Facebook will provide answers to that he lied about? Depth of relationship? Sex or no sex? How much worse do you think it is? I would ask myself that and weigh it against the risk of unblocking. How will it change where you are in your relationship with him now?
'You just keep living, until you are alive again'
'I don't want perfect, I want honest'
rachelc ( member #30314) posted at 11:51 PM on Thursday, October 10th, 2013
do it. Find what you need. block again.
notquiteoverit (original poster member #32919) posted at 12:34 AM on Friday, October 11th, 2013
Thanks, everyone. I'll let you know how this plays out.
Me - BS 50
Him - WS 49
SOW - 52 destitute loser
D-day 1/28/11
Tawnie ( new member #40886) posted at 2:51 AM on Friday, October 11th, 2013
I must say my gut instinct has never been wrong. My WH says he is amazed at my instinct to find things.Can't trust him so trust yourself!
Morhurt ( member #40166) posted at 5:24 PM on Friday, October 11th, 2013
If it was me I would get H and sit down at the computer together (no warning) and tell him that you feel uneasy and need to open up his FB to look around. Hopefully he'll be fine with it, you can do it together, and it will actually rebuild trust.
Also, I don't think PMs can be deleted on FB...at least, when I reactivated my H's account I found one message he "deleted" under the heading of "archived".
I hope this ends up being trust building for you rather than shattering.
Me: BS
Him: FWS
M: 15 years
4 lovely daughters
Working to rebuild.
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