What is the very very good that you see?
I see a man who would drop everything in a heartbeat to help someone. I see a man who is loving (aside from that cheating thing!), thoughtful, genuinely kind, generous (in a number of ways...aside from his generosity to whores), spiritual and most of all, a man that is willing to change himself to be a better father, husband and friend. He had explosive anger problems for many years and he was willing to and did see a therapist specializing in anger problems. I see a man that is a doting son and brother, a man that has tried so hard to be the person he knows he should be; failing miserably at times, but always trying.
Is this confession about something that happened back before Dday #1 or is it something recent?
It was about a series of visits to prostitutes. He kind of left one out and left out a second visit to one of them. D day was the random discovery of hundreds of ads on CL. Since then the confessions have included I's that occurred many years prior to D day #1.
Physically, I left. I am on another continent. When I left he lost our home and lived in his office. While living in his office and homeless he was paying thousands to whores. Ironic, he didn't understand why I didn't have any sympathy for him at that time. When this last confession came out I was like, HELLO!! You did not HAVE to be homeless! You chose to go buy an expensive camera and photograph whores that you paid thousands to! Nope, no sympathy!!
Physically, I am more than capable of taking care of myself. I'm working on the mental/emotional part. I think he is only just starting to wrap his head around the fact that healing hasn't begun. I have made zero progress in healing and R hasn't begun. Can't start R until the full story is out.
Thanks for your listening eyes and feedback ya'll.
I so very much appreciate being able to get some of this out here!
