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That was weird. I have been over her infidelity for over a year. Getting the divorce going, that sort of thing. I am laying here trying sleep, and the images of her and whoever humping in that hotel room entered my mind and made me mad, sad, and disgusted. I did talk my way down (about 1/2 hour), but the thick emotion of it all was like it happened a few weeks ago. Haven't felt that in a long time.

Ugh...this stuff sucks...

You're an interesting species, an interesting mix. You're capable of such beautiful dreams and such horrible nightmares. You feel so lost, so cut off, so alone, only you're not. See, in all our searching, the only thing we've found that makes the emptiness bearable is each other. - Contact

This sort of thing scares me...the residual trauma surfacing again after laying dormant. But hey, on the bright side, you fought it back and it doesn't mean you aren't/haven't moved on--just that your body is cleansing out those last remnants. I'm sorry though, it's bad enough to go back to that place when it's expected due to it's being recent.

I don't think you ever stop feeling mad, sad and disgusted about what they did.

I do think it happens less and less. The cheating itself doesn't trigger me anymore - it's the lies he told to cover it. The lies I told myself too. Those are the flashbacks I get now.

Has something triggered it? I'm always glad to find that what triggers the trigger has nothing to do with him. When I'm feeling down I seem to think about it to kind of give myself an angry boost to get through the next step of healing.