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point taken

Ok. So I think what I'm hearing is this battle shall be won incrementally.

I have a helicopter. Taking it. Will keep you updated. Praising for the miracle helicopter. Grateful.

I need strength for the road ahead but its occured to me. I'd rather be here. In this. With Jesus. Than anywhere apart from His presence. Praise Him.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

My prayers have been multiplied!

Thank you. Prayers answered. We are going be ok. Praise God for His faithful care and deepest thanks to all of you. I'm crying and grateful and overwhelmed.

Its gonna be zapped ok. Lol. But yeah I still am listening hard to navigate the road ahead wisely.

The other thing was He said He would give me a dog. Smh.

I'm going to sit in my garden and praise.

Fantastic!!!

Prayer works!!!

Enjoy your garden!!!

Yeah for dogs!!!

Went to court yesterday for my ticket. Everything reduced or dropped.

I heard "6 months of focus will bring you years of benefit"

Someone wrote it on a forum I'm in and the words leapt off the page like a benediction. I've been afraid to return to my 16 hour a day grind of work because it was so hellish and soul sucking. But I feel like Hes saying this time Hes in it with me and not to be afraid.

And I'm vacillating between anxiety (little bit of PTSD after the year of death and everything goi g wrong) and just sheer awe and thankfulness. I've been praying for everything. I dont think I grasped how big my unbelief was till now. Its renewed my resolve to pray.

I'm so happy for you. Just don't forget, this isn't the time to stop praying. It's so easy once he's fixed our situations to go about our every day lives as if we're back to normal.

I doubt you will have that problem, but I just wanted to remind you of what Paul says. He says that he dies to self daily and to pray without ceasing.

God bless you.

[This message edited by Wool94 at 8:33 AM, June 11th (Tuesday)]

No. I almost feel more need to pray.

Lord of the Dance. You know the song? It's been playing in my head. A lot.Stephen Curtis Chapman

On the bank of a Tennessee River

In a small Kentucky town

I drew my first breath one cold November morning

And before my feet even touched the ground

With the doctors and the nurses gathered 'round

I started to dance

I started to dance

A little boy full of wide-eyed wonder

Footloose and fancy free

But it would happen, as it does for every dancer

That I'd stumble on a truth I couldn't see

And find a longing deep inside of me, it said

I am the heart, I need the heartbeat

I am the eyes, I need the sight

I realize that I am just a body

I need the life

I move my feet, I go through the motions

But who'll give purpose to chance

I am the dancer

I need the Lord of the dance

The world beneath us spins in circles

And this life makes us twist and turn and sway

But we were made for more than rhythm with no reason

By the one who moves with passion and with grace

As He dances over all that He has made

I am the heart, He is the heartbeat

I am the eyes, He is the sight

And I see clearly, I am just a body

He is the life

I move my feet, I go through the motions

But He gives purpose to chance

I am the dancer

He is the Lord of the dance

Lord of the dance

Lord of the dance

And while the music of his love and mercy plays

I will fall down on my knees and I will pray

I am the heart, You are the heartbeat

I am the eyes, You are the sight

And I see clearly, I am just a body

You are the life

I move my feet, I go through the motions

But You give purpose to chance

I am the dancer

You are the Lord of the dance

I am the heart, You are the heartbeat

I am the eyes, You are the sight

And I see clearly, I am just a body

You are the life

I move my feet, I go through the motions

But You give purpose to chance

I am the dancer

You are the Lord of the dance

I am the dancer

You are the Lord of the dance

The first thing after the relief was a blinding impulse. That no matter if I do have what I need something will still go wrong.

So rejecting THAT. But praying over each step.

Then the understanding that He is my answer. Not money or provision. Always him.

Then a sweeping understanding of my lack of faith. That on a heart level I don't believe somewhere in there that He will help me. Confession. Asking for healing. And a real understanding of my need for joy. How it's been assaulted.

So a lot all at once. I'm crying a lot. Lol. But it isn't sad crying it's a release.

[This message edited by Maia at 7:25 AM, June 12th (Wednesday)]

I had to sit in traffic court for a long time and sat next to a cute little guy, about my son's age. Early twenties. Tattooed with a pentagram. He told me about his kids. One name Micah. I said that was a good book and he told me he was pagan and hadn't read it. How Constatine created Christianity.

I laughed.

Jesus created Christianity.

Well in the books it says that, he said.

And I said ...well easy to find out the truth. Because he's alive. That's what resurrection means. And you could therefore talk to Him. And I had. I left it there, changed the subject. But I'm not so different. I don't really on some level believe in answers. Yet. Even now.

Unbelief isn't logical.

Thank you for praying. I still need it I think.

[This message edited by Maia at 7:14 AM, June 12th (Wednesday)]

Ok so walking out of this mess is a process. Still need prayer support definitely.

thank you.

I've been dealing with incredible anxiety. please pray for courage to face it all. not to hide under the covers. which is what part of me . wants to do.

God has not given me a spirit of fear but of power. And I think in my heart I've been seeking an emotional rush of peace or whatever to sweep over me and keep me going. Well. I gotta quit waiting for it and just trust it's there.

tyvm to those who pm and encourage. it has truly helped. :-)

ETA: my hands and arms feel like they are on fire and its making it hard to work. can you guys cover me in prayer fo that too? thank you. (SMH I'm a needy wench)

[This message edited by Maia at 10:25 AM, June 17th (Monday)]

I keep having an image come to mind when I think about you. It's probably wrong but it keeps coming so here it is.

Do you know the dog shows where the doggos run obstacle courses with tunnels and jumps and scramble up and down tent shaped boards? (As an aside, some of my favorite silly need-a-laugh videos are the doggies who refuse, or run it backwards, or go crazy with excitement, and their trainers frantically try to get them back in the groove).

Anyway, I imagine you running a course like that (the right way), over and over, stopping for a breath, Jesus as trainer. And during a pause you say to him "so I'm supposed to do that again, faster?" And you take off running it even harder. And he's left saying "No, actually . . . ."

So the funny thing in my image is, that you are a sheep. And sheep are not supposed to run crazy obstacle courses, though a really determined sheep could probably manage it. They are supposed to look up at their shepherd, follow quietly, lie down in green pastures and all that.

Are you quite sure you are hearing what you are supposed to hear and not what you are telling yourself? (noted that this is my own fear so I might be putting it on you). Arthritis might not be an attack, but a kind of a boat, a practical message of "I keep telling you to rest and you are not so now you're gonna hafta rest little sheep."

So . . . encounters with wizards of the maia class, even benevolent ones, can be terrifying for little hobbits who would rather listen than squeak up. I'm off the to the Green Dragon for a pint.

Maia,

How are you projects coming. I pray that you are able to finish them.

Thanks champ.

projects are ok. I'm staying afloat. Actually getting ready for a little one to arrive, my granddaughter will be here tomorrow.

We're kinda excited.

Congratulations. Best wishes for an easy delivery and everyone's good health.

Congrats! A baby is such a miracle!!!

baby is here. :-) She is beautiful.