ugh, just ignore me. I am a mess. I come on here cos I don't believe him then I end up defending him and arguing his point.
deep down I don't think he wanted the sex. But I have just enough doubt to stop me really believing it.
I met her. She was nothing special but I think most guys would take her up on her offer. H will not admit he wanted to though so I what do I do, believe him or not? He won't change his story. He will see me leave an still not admit. He says he won't admit what's not true again. He has done that before and taken it back straight away. He says he thought he wanted her until he kissed her and when there was no spark he woke up. Said it was like kissing a fish
As for the texting after, which was what my post was originally about, again he swears he was too cowardly to stop it. Why he moaned about me, he has answered and says it cos she was there. The amount of texts, he say cos he was keeping it normal so she wouldn't get pissed off. he says he hated her but he still carried on as normal cos he couldn't see a way out.
I swear to God this stuff is going to land me in the nuthouse.
maybe he did maybe he didn't, maybe he wanted it maybe he didn't. I can't force it out of him.
All I know is this is destroying me. He won't change his story and all he wants to do is move forward and show me he loves me and is sorry. I just want the truth but I am either never going to get it or I already have it and am destroying our chances of R by not believing him.
Again I ask, why did he HAVE to have wanted it?
[This message edited by olwen at 3:25 PM, February 18th (Tuesday)]
