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I am okay. This weekend was a little hard but only because I was told he was circling around my house. I received a text around 10 on Friday from a friend saying she saw him coming into my town. But then I didn't hear anymore until Saturday when I went into the little store. My neighbor works there and she told me that he was in there. Then my aunt called later that evening to tell me that my uncle saw him. He turned around 3 different times to meet him and catch him, each time he was going by. So my cousin moved his truck into my driveway so he would think someone was there. I don't know why he was over there unless he was looking for something to steal.

His basement whore applied for a public defender and was denied. She goes to court on Thursday. I am sure they are getting a little nervous. And he is probably getting a little cold as well. Oh well. Guess he should have thought about taking everything he wanted when he left. Not. My. Problem.

I have been really missing him. Or at least who I thought he was. I guess I just miss my family. Some days I don't think about him at all. Others, he is ALL I think about. Every moment of my life had him in it. It is hard to get used to not being his wife or his girlfriend, even. That is who I have always been. I need to find myself.

I need to find myself.

You're already on the journey and are discovering little bits at a time. Congratulations and God's speed with the wind at your back!

BBM you have come so far. Think about the changes you have made over the last few months, how much stronger you have become. We are all so proud of you here!

With his girlfriend likely heading to the slammer you need to prepare for him to ramp it up. Afterall he will be in desperate need of someone to enable him,take care of him, and allow him to simply do nothing. I would not be at all shocked if he comes calling to see if he can weasel his way back in. I am so glad that you are in a stronger place and that you have good people who are there for you. Remember if he comes onto your property again you need to call the police. No more nice guy! I still worry about your poor dog living with two meth heads.

Keep us posted BBM!

I am having a really rough time. Yesterday was LCB's birthday. As bad as it sounds, yes even to me, I miss him. It is a good thing that I changed numbers and deleted all numbers associated with him because all I wanted to do was reach out to him. I have cried nonstop for 2 days. I just miss my husband and family so bad.

I was doing good....at least I thought I was. But this weekend, everything just feels so fresh and raw again. Is this normal? Should I be having such an emotional setback? Even with all of the stupidity and nonsense and ridiculousness that he has put me through? Why would I even want him? I HATE THIS!!!

Completely normal BBmom. Unfortunately you will probably have a rough day or two with each "first" that comes up...normally special days, holidays, events you always did together...

The good news is, next year, his birthday won't hurt like this. Within 2-3 years, his birthday will hardly register at all.

Baseball mom, how are you doing? Can you check in?

I am actually doing okay, for the time being. I recently went to the doctor for a follow up and I have lost 36 pounds (or 32, depends on whose scale you believe!) since my dear LCB husband showed his true colors. I guess he was good for something after all.

My son was gone all weekend with his Papa hunting so I cleaned his room. In the process, I found a picture of the 2 of them. He had scribbled over LCB's face. That hurt. But not for myself, for my son. He deserves so much better.

I am dreading the holidays. But I am taking it one day at a time. He has officially moved up in the world. He is no longer living in the basement with his basement whore. They are now living in a small "apartment" inside of a garage. Nice and cozy, I guess.

Hugs, BBM. One day at a time. You will get stronger, day by day. He us a loser and one day, he WILL regret his choices. You, however, will be moved on by then, and in a better place.

Glad to hear from you. Just remember, keep walking one step at a time. We're all here to support you on that walk. (((hugs)))

Holidays can be painful as hell but they are also a chance to create new traditions. Do what you like and enjoy yourself as much as you can. Count your blessings--you've probably got way more than you thought.