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You had some questions I never answered because I had abandoned this thread after feeling some strong double standards.

How can you just lie there and be completely uninvolved?

Not that hard really. I would wake up with her climbing on top of me, and I would just lay there and let her.

Is coloring her hobby? I read an article about how artists create drawings and grown ups spend millions buying coloring books. What is the meaning of her name?

She picked that name because she felt like if she was a book, she would be a coloring book because she had been so shallow.

Does she make you happy at all?

She use to.

Do you have any reason to doubt her sincerity?

Only that as soon as she had a glimmer of having to live with the consequences spelled out in our divorce decree, she wanted to change it. As if she was so sure I wouldn't leave her, she agreed to anything to "prove" her sincerity.

Since I questioned her sincerity in this thread, she has changed her tune and is accepting the terms.

If you were to reconcile, would it be with or without remarriage?

Probably without, whats the point? I always thought marriage was a safe place. Its not. But I think I could marry someone else if it was important to them.

Just read this post and RM .. wow .. my heart really goes out to you. Triggers are the worst and they come out of nowhere and you know i teared up because i understand how even looking at the stars brings pain .. it is heartbreaking to try and go through life and not be able to be fully functional because of the painful triggers.

Just want you to know I am really cheering for you ... and I want to encourage you to get out and make friends as much as you can.

((HUGS)))

Glad to hear you are doing ok and moving in the right direction. Her focus seems to still be what is best for her.

Hi. Have you perhaps had any IC to help you cope with this trauma? How are the kids doing? I'm glad to hear things have gone smoothly with running the house and that you're exercising! Best wishes!

No IC for me yet. My anxiety has subsided with new living arrangements. That said, CB came over last night and had dinner with us, and it was pleasant. I have tried to be aware of the situation with my kids, I remind myself to show extra love to them. The current situation leaves me less depressed and I seem to find more time to play games with them and show them appreciation for helping out with chores.

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