Really sorry you are feeling low girl.
I assume your husband is your Wayward.
You will get through this.
My wife is reading Alexander Lowen that apparently helps to connect with the emotions from the body and she finds it helpful.
I can recommend you physical excercise, even just yoga, but some home exercise lower upper body helps too if it's your thing.
If you do it in the morning just about before breakfast you will feel energized. Greatly.
A lot of the stress you experience can be purged through physical activity and the happy chemicals will help your mood.
Third, do you know diaphragmatic breathing?
Is like breathing with your belly, like a child does, is deep and relaxing, reliefing the cortisol, if you learn it (is natural we change breathing style later in life) you will do automatically.
It makes you feel grounded, present, takes you out of your head and more into your body, now.
And really you have all my sympathy and I am sure all others here are welcoming you to express anything that troubles your emotions.
You will be heard, and is what you need now.
