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I am aching inside and crying now.

Feeling so sad right now, so many regrets, so many years of lies, deceit and betrayal of my wonderful husband.

I was up at 5:00 to watch the royal wedding live on TV. I cried throughout the whole service. Being High Anglican (Canadian equivalent of Church of England) brought back the memories of our wedding. We were so young and in love.

Hindsight is 20/20.

My marriage of 39 years is over. It died two years ago We no longer celebrate our anniversary.

I can only hope that my husband, with his reflection and thinking time of the last few days away from home, will find it in his heart to stay with me and build a new marriage, a more mature and loving future.

Last night, I wrote my husband a letter. (Thank you, HUFI). It is from the heart and I hope it will help him with his healing.

I am leaving now for a retreat weekend with fellow Anglican women. When I come home on Sunday, I am determined to return with renewed faith and hope in my heart.

I love my husband.

With Love Always, BH.

~ lf

[This message edited by looking forward at 9:32 AM, April 29th (Friday)]

(((lookingforward)))

((((looking forward))))

Yes, there are many regrets when one looks back on the hurt and pain and destruction that our affairs have caused. But if there is one thing I have learnt and that is that no amount of looking backwards will change what has happened. The past is unchangeable.

The best thing to do is to acknowledge the past, accept the responsibility for the past and then concentrate on moving your head and heart in a forward motion. We have to focus ourselves on the road ahead of us and not the one that we have already trod upon.

I hope your H receives the letter and sees the love that you are trying to express within it.

HUFI

Unknown Poster - Regret is insight that comes a day too late.