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Well the anniversery of DD1 is here and I think I am doing okay. I kind of look at things and think, It would have been three years out if he hadn't done anything else and things would be better. I have triggered a few times this month, the bad thing is, I haven't told him I triggered.

They have been on the way to work and I have had to calm down and go into work, and just havent' bothered to call him and let him know. By the time Lunch break comes around, I am alright and it seems pointless. I KNOW it isn't pointless, but I am so tired of thinking about it and dealing with it.

There was a point when my BH stopped telling me about the triggers for the most part. I asked him why and he said that there was nothing I could do, that he needed to work through them himself.

The important thing is that if you feel you need to talk about it, your WS makes it safe for you to do so.

((((MystiKay))))

Laura

Also at 3 yrs out from the start of affair season. Just like you I keep the triggers to myself. I mean there really isn't anything he can do at this point. It is up to me to finish healing myself. Now if I see her then I will share.

Yeah I agree. There are times, at least for me, where it is time to just stop bringing it up. The triggers aren't bad. Just a bit of tears and snotty before work.

At least there is no new hurts, and I am not sure if he even remembers this is DD1 time and i really can't see the good of bringing it up. Makes me just wonder if this is what Man is going to mean to me for next some odd years.

Apparently you're right, this is the season to cheat. My WW was in full on affair last year at this time. She isn't as triggered as I am.

Every day I think of what was going on during this time last year. Hurts like a MoFo :(

Saturday is the antiversary here.

It has replaced our wedding anniversary as his most recent anniversary- unfortunately I wasn't one of the two people involved that day. Also, Memorial Day marks the anniversary of the day I came home to discover he had packed and left without a word. Next up for me is the dd 1st year antiversary. He bookended the summer- charming.

It's the season for many of us for sure.

My WH's A season is fast approaching. 2 days in July (the first and last time he slept with her, 3 days apart in July but 2 years apart), a Dday in Sept as well as another day he slept with her. UGH! October is our wedding anniversary as well as another Dday. Lies continues until March, when I thought we were mostly in R. SOOOOOOO want to be a bear and hibernate during July - March.

It is summer and hot, maybe it is all the skimpy clothing? I don't know..that was flippant. I have noticed that I am not confrontational this time around. And not with just him. WIth managers, friends others.

LOL My husband bookended the summer too. DD1 was in May, DD2 was in August. I wonder if he knows he has two more months inbetween there to fill. He better get on that or I will be able to enjoy June and July with no problems.

This entire summer is a trigger. 1yr ago.

May - A at full steam

June - I found out, she wouldn't stop.

July - "I can't get over him".

Aug - Pain and more pain from TT

Sept - Shit hits the fan.

Another one here in full A season too.

Last Saturday was our 17 year anniversary. We did go to dinner but I was not up for celebrating. The last one we spent together before DDay was 2 yrs ago. He texted her while I went to the bathroom during our anniversary dinner. Last year the day of our anniversary he met her for the last time in my favorite city in the country.

June 22 is the 2 yr antiversary of ILYBNILWY. He did approach me last year about R in June. I finally agreed in July.

July 4 weekend 2 years ago was DDay. He was with her in her town when I found out the whole truth. I was thrown under the bus for her.

Yeah, I have a hard time with summer season now.

I am so glad to see others talking about keeping triggers to themselves. I seem to be doing this a lot lately. MrKOKO has been good when I do share but what can he really do? My burden to bare now. We have our MC tonight I was actually going to bring this up to him. So glad I see others experiencing the same thing.

[This message edited by keeponkeepingon at 12:39 PM, May 21st (Tuesday)]

no one else is pissed they actually HAVE triggers? Do you just say to yourself, ok, I've decided to stay in this marriage and that means I deal with the triggers myself the best I can?

Do you just say to yourself, ok, I've decided to stay in this marriage and that means I deal with the triggers myself the best I can?

Maybe I am not understanding what you said but half the time now I don't bother saying anything when I trigger, even when he asks. What's the point? He processes at the speed of a turtle so he doesn't *see* things the way I do until wayyyy after me. So, I hurt, I am annoyed, he asks, I tell him, he looks like a puppy who is confused. Yeah no thanks :-(

In tears just reading all of these posts. This is A season for us as well. This weekend a year ago he left me and our children. I just wrote my own post about the triggers.

to rachelc- I am totally pissed that my life has been turned upside down by his decisions that have affected me more than he will ever know. I am forever changed because of the choices he has made. I feel some of it is for the good but for some is for the bad as well. I think the closer it gets towards the weekend the worse it gets.

I also feel that I do both deal with the triggers on my own because there is nothing he can really do other than say he is sorry and it is something that I need to process on my own. If it gets to be too bad I do tell him that I am having a rough time and he will sit there with my and just hold me, rub my back, or hug me what ever I need. I just still wish that this had never happened to us. Although it does not hurt as bad it still hurts. There is a part of the man that I have known for 17 years that I will never know and that kills me.