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sodamnlost (original poster member #37190) posted at 5:05 PM on Thursday, June 20th, 2013
Having WH take a poly tonight at 6:30. Not suspecting anything new, just looking for some reassurance I guess. I know it's not a silver bullet but with years of mind games from him, I am not so sure I trust my brain some days :-(
Me - BS original Dday 10-2012, separated June 2014, divorce Fall 2016
Grief, loss and pain taunt her - "you will never be the same." Like a Phoenix rising from the ashes, she rises and spreads her new wings as she brushes off the ashes an
confused615 ( member #30826) posted at 5:22 PM on Thursday, June 20th, 2013
Good luck.
WH said he would take one..but has made no effort to do so. 
I hope you get the reassurance you're looking for.
((((sodamnlost))))
BS(me)44
FWH 48
4 kids
M: June 2001
D-Day: 8/10/10
..that feeling you get in your stomach, when you heart's broken. It's like all the butterflies just died.
JustWow ( member #19636) posted at 6:14 PM on Thursday, June 20th, 2013
Good luck, both of you.
We did this. it did help, both of us.
BW - Reconciling
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Rebreather ( member #30817) posted at 6:50 PM on Thursday, June 20th, 2013
*fingers crossed* for no parking lot confessons and a good result!
Me BS
Him WH
2 ddays in '07
Rec'd.
"The cure for the pain, is the pain." -Rumi
JanaGreen ( member #29341) posted at 8:19 PM on Thursday, June 20th, 2013
((HUGS)) and good luck tonight. I know it's not going to be easy.
sodamnlost (original poster member #37190) posted at 10:49 PM on Thursday, June 20th, 2013
He feels like crap because he had made choices that have us here, his wife asking for a poly. He is scared it won't help me.
I feel guilty almost. I *KNOW* I shouldn't but I do. I don't think he is still lying (most days) but on those days I do - yeah - the crazy takes over and hopefully this will help. I am *TERRIFIED* that he is still lying to me :-( I sooooo hope the poly gives me some security. I am scared of what I will have to do if he *IS* still lying. My belly is in knots. My head hurts. I want to vomit. My chest has an elephant on it. I want it over and done already.
Me - BS original Dday 10-2012, separated June 2014, divorce Fall 2016
Grief, loss and pain taunt her - "you will never be the same." Like a Phoenix rising from the ashes, she rises and spreads her new wings as she brushes off the ashes an
OptimisticWife ( member #36587) posted at 11:22 PM on Thursday, June 20th, 2013
(((sodamnlost)))
I hope you feel much better once you have the results. Don't feel guilty. Good on you for looking out for yourself. I think it's good that your WH is doing this in hopes of helping your healing. It's a great step for you both. I wish you both the best. Good luck.
1Faith ( member #38975) posted at 11:35 PM on Thursday, June 20th, 2013
Good luck!! It will hopefully be another reassurance for you so you can move forward. Sending hugs.
Sometimes my life feels like a test I didn't study for
sodamnlost (original poster member #37190) posted at 12:51 AM on Friday, June 21st, 2013
HE PASSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:-) YAY!!
Me - BS original Dday 10-2012, separated June 2014, divorce Fall 2016
Grief, loss and pain taunt her - "you will never be the same." Like a Phoenix rising from the ashes, she rises and spreads her new wings as she brushes off the ashes an
JustWow ( member #19636) posted at 1:49 AM on Friday, June 21st, 2013
yay! yay! yay!
Good job, BOTH of you, boundaries and promises are both important to keep - and ya both did your part!
BW - Reconciling
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Jrazz ( member #31349) posted at 2:09 AM on Friday, June 21st, 2013
Yaaaaay!!! I'm so glad. Hopefully this is a huge load off for both of you!!
(((sdl)))
"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest." - Deeply Scared's mom
catlover50 ( member #37154) posted at 2:23 AM on Friday, June 21st, 2013
Dday -9/23/2012
Reconciled
LivinginLimbo ( member #35004) posted at 2:29 AM on Friday, June 21st, 2013
I hope this helps you to move on.
BS - 65
WH - 63
Married 37 years
D-Day 2/12/12
D-Day 6/1/16 Caught him back online early enough that no physical contact took place but still devastating. This sucks.
Missymomma ( member #36988) posted at 2:30 AM on Friday, June 21st, 2013
Congratulations! Hope it gives you some peace. 
DDay - 6/15/11
R started - 7/1/11
False Discl- 9/27/12
Real Discl - 2/12/13
Poly - 3/1/13 Pass!
Me - BS (46)
WH - 52 (SA, NA, WA)
Kids: 2 littles and 1 grown
The road to recovery is long and hard. Some days I am up for it and others not!
PinkJeepLady ( member #37575) posted at 2:35 AM on Friday, June 21st, 2013
That's awesome, I bet this is a huge relief for both of you. What a positive step for R!
Thanks for sharing your news! Have a wonderful evening! 
Me: BW Him: FWH
DDay June 1st 2012
cheated with prostitutes overseas
Reconciled - thought so, but now divorcing
SoVerySadNow ( member #36711) posted at 3:11 AM on Friday, June 21st, 2013
Yay! I love hearing positive things.
Me:BW
Him:WH
D-day(s),after years of TT and Gaslighting was Labor Day Weekend 2012, continuing for a week after. *Dammit! More TT 3/9/13
Really trending toward D- planning about it is my "happy place" now.
HardenMyHeart ( member #15902) posted at 3:42 AM on Friday, June 21st, 2013
Me: BH, Her: WW, Married 40 years, Reconciled
Skan ( member #35812) posted at 4:55 AM on Friday, June 21st, 2013
Imagine a ship trying to set sail while towing an anchor. Cutting free is not a gift to the anchor. You must release that burden, not because the anchor is worthy, but because the ship is.
D-Day, June 10, 2012
OptimisticWife ( member #36587) posted at 1:14 PM on Friday, June 21st, 2013
Fantastic!!! All the best to you both
AFrayedKnot ( member #36622) posted at 1:25 PM on Friday, June 21st, 2013
BS 48fWS 44 (SurprisinglyOkay)DsD DSA whole bunch of shit that got a lot worse before it got better."Knowing is half the battle"
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