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For some reason I'm feeling down in the dumps tonight. I'm exhausted from cleaning the house all weekend... got in a couple of workouts.... but all in all....I spent the whole weekend alone with my daughter. Don't get me wrong... I love my mommy time with her.... but sometimes I REALLY miss adult conversation.

I think that's what I miss most about being married. Having someone at home that I can talk to so that I don't feel quite so lonely. It would have been nice to go out tonight... and feel like a woman again....even if for just a moment... but he had a totally legit reason for cancelling.

So, I will sit here... prepare for work tomorrow... and maybe have a glass of wine before bed and pout a little..

That is all.

Know what you means, She11ybeanz!

I work for myself, from my home office. I wake up in the morning, work, then eat supper - all by myself. When the kids are here, it's great, but the rest of the time I have WAY too much time inside my head.

I'm actually considering applying for a "real" job in a "real" office. I have lots of evening activities every night, but that just isn't enough.

It sounds like you need to find something like that to get you with people.

Well, luckily....I do have a "real" job I guess! haha! In the real world anyways! A lot of times I look forward to going to work on Mondays just to be around others... but most of the time I spend in my little cubicle to myself anyways.... so I don't do a whole lot of interaction with others but try to at least talk to a few of my coworkers throughout the day..... so working does break up the monotony...

Not sure if you've done much online dating but feeling down and even depressed during the 'no attention' times between dates, meet ups and the constant online contacts is common.

It might not have anything to do with your mood but just something to be aware of, that adrenaline rush you get when anticipating what might be with OLD, is balance by the lows in between. You get used to it but it is exhausting

What are your friend circles like? Girlfriends? Mommy friends? Your sister?

Well, my sister and I were really close when I was pregnant.....but now that she watches the baby during the week, she doesn't seem all that interested in hanging out imbetween....and I feel bad bothering her because I know her time off is precious. My bestie was busy all weekend and has 3 kids of her own and had family visiting and a wedding to go to.

I've just found that my old circle of friends isn't quite as tight, especially with those who do not have children. No one wants to hang out with the single mom cause I have to take my daughter just about everywhere with me. Her Godmother cancelled on me yesterday cause she had a migraine....cause I was "going" to go for a run stroller-FREE but ended up doing a shorter run with the stroller. It was pretty hot though so that was probably a blessing in disguise.....