For those of you who don't know….
My son has an issue with drugs. Huge pot smoker. Got into trouble about 5 years ago….was arrested and on probation for the last 5 years.
About 1.5 years ago he got into an accident, DUI. Broken bones in his back, slight brain bleed….very frightening.
Back to court.
All of this has been wearing on me/us for the last 5 years. He works, gets fired, quits, has no money, doesn't pay his bills…really lousy, unacceptable behavior.
We finally threw him out in February. It was the hardest thing we have ever done, and it was long over-due.
He has burned all of his bridges, no longer has friends to take him in so he sleeps in his car or at his girlfriends when they are getting along.
Fast forward, girlfriend now pregnant and court has been looming over his head. He had to pay up or go to jail.
My husband and I have held firm. He gets nothing from us. Emotional support if he ever wanted it and a meal if he is hungry, but no money.
So he goes to court today. He has a new job, has money for court and has a little glimmer of hope in him. It's a small step…a tiny step, but I will take it.
I have been overwhelmed lately with all of his bad decisions. I worry I will have the cops at my house telling me he dead…it's my biggest fear.
He and his girlfriend have come to a comfortable place with the baby coming, maybe he has accepted it or something has clicked….I don't know, but for now, I will take it.They have picked out a name and he is actually talking about her (it’s a girl) in a loving way.
I will still worry and watch for actions, not words. Tonight however, I will sleep well. Maybe, just maybe there is a man inside ready to step up.
I pray he is on the edge of finding his way.
I wanted to thank everyone for their support during this lousy time. As much as we know we are doing "what's right" for him, it has been the most difficult time in our parenting lives.
And a special Thank You to AN. Your shoulder, support, BTDT have been a great comfort for me over the last few months.
Thank you.
ETA: And of course, we have to be in court today when the police bring Hernandez in....what a cluster f***.....CNN, Fox News, you name it....all over the place. It made me sad to know this million dollar football player is a year YOUNGER than my son....his parents have to be heart-broken. UGH
[This message edited by karmahappens at 10:20 PM, June 26th (Wednesday)]