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lifestoshort (original poster member #18442) posted at 3:07 PM on Thursday, July 4th, 2013
woke to complete anxiety this morning. he cannot get served because I have no clue where he is or what state. he has a navy bank acct so there is no address he needs to go to to get money. he has no one he needs to report to. hes just off the grid.
the suv is paid in full.
he took my gps which probably had a tracker but i dont have a serial number for it.
im just a mess today. realizing if I had that money i would be ok right now. I would be able to not have to look for him and just pay the bills and not worry. yet again, a crying mess today. all the flashbacks flooding in of good and bad.
im on that rollercoaster they say happens. i want off. i hate being weak and vulnerable. I feel like im going to have a heart attack or break down.
I did facebook his friends, family and him last night. he had me blocked on fb so I just remade a new one. told him what needed to be said. it goes to their "other" folder so they may not see it right away. but I also said i will be filing a missing persons report today if I dont hear from him
[This message edited by lifestoshort at 9:11 AM, July 4th (Thursday)]
Im 45. 1st H I left in 2001 after 3 kids. narcassist.
2nd exH had MANY affairs.FALSE R. cheats again. D 5/09. 2 kids. I got 100% custody. ex hasnt seen kids in 6 yrs.
2014 to now: dated highschool sweetheart. He cheated w 23 yr old & left.
Nature_Girl ( member #32554) posted at 9:50 PM on Thursday, July 4th, 2013
When I have days like what you're having, sometimes I get through them by telling myself that me & the kids are okay right now, right this minute. Sometimes I have to talk myself through each day an hour at a time. We have a roof over our heads right now. We have some food in the pantry right now. We have electricity today. There is some gas in the car today.
There are days when the big picture is too overwhelming, so all I can do is just narrow my vision to right now.
(((HUGS))))
Me = BS
Him = EX-d out (abusive troglodyte NPD SA)
3 tween-aged kids
Together 20 years
D-Day: Memorial Weekend 2011
2013 - DIVORCED!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wJgjyDFfJuU
dreamlife ( member #8142) posted at 2:00 AM on Friday, July 5th, 2013
I'm so sorry you are going through this...check with your local church and food banks, too. They helped me out a lot.
((((huge hugs))))
~XWH told me what I wanted to hear but he always did whatever he wanted to do~
"He called me a bitch.
I called him an ambulance."
Linda H.)
peridot ( member #18334) posted at 5:20 AM on Friday, July 5th, 2013
There is also places that will help with rent and utilities. You also might be able to get foodstamps and help with childcare.
I think...therefore, I'm single.
It is what it is.
ButterflyGirl ( member #38377) posted at 5:59 AM on Friday, July 5th, 2013
Just wanted to send you some hugs girl.. You've got a lot on your plate, but you can do this. Reach out for help as people said.
A lot of anxiety comes from worrying what's going to happen next, so I recommend thinking of the worst thing that could happen and figure out how you would deal with it. If you are unable to come up with the money for bills, maybe call the companies and explain the situation and see if they can work something out with you.. Churches and food banks and local resources can also be a big help.
Sounds like he's making some huge mistakes, so just stand tall and proud and trust yourself that you will get this figured out.
Sending you lots of strength.. Huge hugs..
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