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MadeOfScars (original poster member #42231) posted at 4:37 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
Just curious. I have not been able to sleep in the bed that we called ours since D-day. Being in our bedroom at all is limited to getting dressed basically. That said, sleeping in my chair or couch in the living room isn't exactly working for many reasons. I also can't exactly afford to upkeep this house and live somewhere else at the same time.
So, who among you are able to sleep in the same bed as before you got the news? Are there any suggestions for getting past this kind of thing just so I can actually sleep comfortably, physically speaking at least?
BTW, looks like I'll be stuck in this house for some time still. Long list of reasons, but just trust me. If I had my way, i'd sell and move out tomorrow.
"Incredible change happens in your life when you decide to take control of what you do have power over instead of craving control over what you don’t." - Steve Maraboli
RealityStinks ( member #41457) posted at 4:49 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
She started sleeping in a spare bedroom three months before she moved out, so I guess I was used to it. I do keep clean laundry folded on "her side" so that it feels like someone is there.
Just do it man. It's just a bed.
Hang in there.
overandone ( member #39162) posted at 4:52 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
If my fWH had been anywhere near our bed with OW it would have been on the bonfire immediately, couldn't have kept it in the house. Luckily for me it didn't happen. They had 2 get-togethers in the house using his study and office chair. He threw that chair out long ago, office is no longer there - the wall came down to make an open-plan landing. At H's instigation as he knew I hated that room.
Get rid of that bed! It'll be worth every penny. Some things in life you just have to spend out on, and this is one of them.
Me - BW (54)
Him - fWS (61)
kiddies - daughters 22 and 27,son 22,
d-day - April 18 2012
15 years on/off LTA
R - but lots of bumps in the long road
overandone ( member #39162) posted at 4:53 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
And slap some paint on the walls while you're at it. Make the bedroom as unrecognisable as you can.
Me - BW (54)
Him - fWS (61)
kiddies - daughters 22 and 27,son 22,
d-day - April 18 2012
15 years on/off LTA
R - but lots of bumps in the long road
BAMAC ( member #39334) posted at 4:59 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
My wife left to stay with her parents the day before dday. Prior to that, she had been mostly sleeping in our guest room.
Being home alone after dday was terrible for me, so I ended up staying with my parents for a couple months. After we both moved back in, we repainted our bedroom and rearranged all the furniture. If you can't go somewhere else, maybe you could change something like the sheets or the location of the bed so it seems different enough.
DDays - 1/26/2013 | 3/23/14
Divorced 7/10/2014
obliquestrat ( member #42165) posted at 5:02 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
Lucky enough to have hardcore HB ( hysterical bonding - http://www.survivinginfidelity.com/faq_bs.asp#FAQ10 ), so, in the same bed.
Consider faking it until you make it, presuming R is on the table? And if it is, having the WS do whatever it takes to help. There were a *lot* of restless nights for me, and thus us, in the first couple of weeks. I mean like 3 hours of sleep per night on average. Looking back, I don't know how I managed to stay upright. Typical pattern: talk late before bed, sleep for a few hours, wake up restless, start talking again. Repeat. It's much better now.
simplydevastated ( member #25001) posted at 5:24 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
I sleep on the edge of the bed, literally the edge and part on my night stand. I refuse to leave my room and I don't want to sleep close to him, so that's my spot.
Me - BS, 40 (I'm not old...I'm vintage)
Two Wonderful children - DS11, DD8
Getting my ducks in a row for divorce... finally (4+ D-Days too many - listed in profile.)
doggiediva ( member #33806) posted at 6:19 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
I sleep in the master bedroom and have the master bathroom to myself..
There are a couple of things that have to happen that make it possible for us to live in the same house until my ducks are in a row for D..
The first is the bedroom arrangement as mentioned..
The second thing is that WH is not allowed to watch TV in the same room with me unless he has the wireless headphones in his ears..
He loves to watch the TV cranked high and watches it all of his waking hours when at home..I wouldn't be able to live with this habit of his if it weren't for the head/earphones..
Had WH been at all stubborn about moving to another room of the house to sleep I would have been out of the house ducks in a row or not..Same with the TV issue..
WH knows that me being out of the house would have meant an official D happening at the point of my leaving, with him having the loss of health insurance and a way to pay some of the bills...
WH knows that he cannot walk all over me in regards to my boundaries regarding living habits in the house..
Simply devastated, it sounds like you need to develop a loud and nasty snoring and drooling problem or start peeing in the bed, lol.. This may get your WH the heck out of the bedroom fast
[This message edited by doggiediva at 12:23 PM, February 3rd (Monday)]
Don't tie your happiness to the tail of somebody else's kite
63 years young..
tushnurse ( member #21101) posted at 7:00 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
Once solidly in R we did get new furniture, and bed for our room. It was fabulous. We were overdue, and finally got our King Sized Mattress. He painted during his time out of work as well. It was nice to redo it.
He NEVER brought woman to our home, since I don't travel, and she lived 4 hours away. Otherwise I am not sure I would have been able to stay, I certainly would have burned the bed, and redone the room.
Me: FBSHim: FWSKids: 23 & 27 Married for 32 years now, was 16 at the time.D-Day Sept 26 2008R'd in about 2 years. Old Vet now.
strangeasfiction ( member #42160) posted at 7:03 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
I'm in the guest room. Not welcome in our bed.
Me - BS 39
Her - WW 34
Kids - 3 & 1
Married - 9 years
Status - FUBAR
MadeOfScars (original poster member #42231) posted at 7:04 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
Yeah, guess I should have said we shared this bed up until D-day, and I have no reason to believe the A ever happened in that bed. I haven't left town for work or anything in quite some time, and I'm almost always home before her (just how our schedules worked out) so I just don't know when it could've happened in our home. Nonetheless, we just bought that damn bed, and all it is is a reminder now.
I have a hole to finish patching in the bedroom wall anyway, so I may take that opportunity to just repaint. Maybe that'll help some.
"Incredible change happens in your life when you decide to take control of what you do have power over instead of craving control over what you don’t." - Steve Maraboli
ClearEyes12 ( new member #42250) posted at 7:13 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
I've tried sleeping on the couch, but it's cold and it's really not fair to have to sleep somewhere when HE is the one that is doing this to ME. I sleep in the bed but far away from him as possible. I've asked him to sleep on the couch, but he always ends up back in bed once I'm asleep.
simplydevastated ( member #25001) posted at 9:12 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
I'm in the guest room. Not welcome in our bed.
I'm sorry, but how are you not welcome in your bed? You're the BS. I could understand a BS saying that to a WS, especially if they're not showing remorse.
I'm sorry it's like that for you.
Me - BS, 40 (I'm not old...I'm vintage)
Two Wonderful children - DS11, DD8
Getting my ducks in a row for divorce... finally (4+ D-Days too many - listed in profile.)
TrustedHer ( member #23328) posted at 10:44 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
After D-Day#2 I asked her to move out of the bedroom, and when she finally moved out, she took the bedroom set with her.
I bought some yardsale stuff (bed, dresser, chest) and moved it into a spare room, with the intent of redecorating the empty master bedroom.
Never did it, and I'm fairly comfortable where I am.
I'll probably slap some paint and new flooring down there just to make the room more useful.
Take care of yourself. There's a great future out there. It won't come to you; you have to go to it.
Merlin ( member #30221) posted at 10:46 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
"I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself. A bird will fall frozen dead from a bough without ever having felt sorry for itself." D. H. Lawrence
Her: WW/57 Me: BS/63 24yrs M
3 great kids, now 22, 20, 17 b,b,g
D-Day 8/14/08, D 1/13/11
lostcovenants ( member #40637) posted at 11:32 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
LOL! You got that right Merlin!
MOW was never at our house (dear God I hope that's the truth). So we are in our bed - together - crying - talking - and yea some HB.
DDs, 1977 (prostitutes), 7/8/13 (LTA MOW), 11/14 (CL), 9/1/15 (PA).
Porn, 2DUIs, blame-shifting. I told both families & adult kids. I was suicidal and cutting.
I moved out for 2 years, he asked me to come home 10/16. R w exit plan.
STD discovered
caregiver9000 ( member #28622) posted at 11:41 PM on Monday, February 3rd, 2014
I saw the thread title and immediately my response was "Anywhere I damn well want to." And that is the truth.
It took awhile, but I claimed both sides of the bed. I use as many or as few pillows as I want.
I fall asleep on the couch if I want. No one nags me about sleeping in the living room, or interrupts my sleep with snoring or tossing or turning.
I don't lie in bed awake raging because the guilty seem to have no trouble sleeping.
Four years out? The answer is "I sleep just fine, when and where (and with?) as I please."
It gets better. I promise. Whether your future is R or D, time is a great healer.
Me: fortysomething, independent, happy,
XH "Stretch" (and Skew!) ;)
two kids, teens. Old enough I am truly NO CONTACT w/ NPD zebraduck
S 5/2010
D 12/2012
PRNDL ( member #41927) posted at 12:03 AM on Tuesday, February 4th, 2014
I could no longer be in our bed. Although our master bedroom is nice and large with three big windows, I just could not be in their. Eventually the whole house became a stressor.
I now sleep on a tiny crappy futon at my moms in a tiny room. Me, a professional with a nice house and a career living with mom because of that whore.
I lost everything i built over 14 years, bed included.
Yet....
I now sleep like a baby.
BH: 36 (me)
WS: 31 / OM: 31
Son: 12
Affair: 1.5 year long 2012
ONS with stranger Feb 2013
D-day #1 March 2013
D-day #2 April 2013
D-day #3 Sept 2013
Affair continued.
Limbo 7 months
Moved out - 180D - NC
Divorced
A over. Defogged. Trying R
kenny55 ( member #23014) posted at 12:37 AM on Tuesday, February 4th, 2014
Can you sell the bed? My 29 year old sleeps on an air bed from Target.
Sadmumma ( member #42192) posted at 1:54 AM on Tuesday, February 4th, 2014
The marital bed was never used by OW that I'm confidant about...
So I sleep I. It still.
I am however going to buy new bedding/linen and repainted the room. Just to make it "mine"
Oh, and I took the ugly print off he wall that he loved :) it's in a box with some of his other things in the garage,
On any given day you have the power to say "my story is not going to end like this"
Me 41 BS
Him 41 WH
6 kids...7 weeks, 5,7,9,11&13
D day jan 29th 2014
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