On Monday, I couldn't reach my fWH and after an hour, I "assumed" that he was out having sex with someone else. He has done NOTHING to give me any indication of this. It was just a trigger. I spiraled down down and am really in a funk. Mind movies again about hotel rooms, OW, the two of them having sex.
I am feeling very emotional again, after having some good weeks. It feels like intense grief. Is it me or is it him? It feels like something has died. Additionally, I am just not feeling good about myself, but exercising, eating healthy, etc. I have been reading Brene brown book. Controlling what I can.
I am struggling when I thought I was doing pretty well. I have gone to IC, but not recently. It feels like when I go I am a broken record and just can't accept, let go, move on.
Any thoughts, suggetions? All feedback would be welcome! It feels like something in me has died or is missing....
Undone1
Married 10+ years to my high school sweetheart
DDAY 10/27/12
Me 55
WH 55
Blended Family: 25, 21, and 20
Married 10 years
"The Universe Unfolds as it Should"
