I've never posted a general update to the community until today. But I felt moved to do so as a thank you to all of you who have helped me survive this journey so far and who have kept me going when I thought my life couldn't get any darker.
Today is our wedding anniversary, the first since D-Day. And I am out of town on business - something that I had no control over - so I was apprehensive about being apart this year after having never missed an anniversary.
I so badly wanted this day to go well for my own healing, and I'm happy to report that as the day winds down, I feel content and loved by my H. When I woke up, there was a lovely note in my email, and we had a few further personal and loving written exchanges as well as phone calls during the day. It meant a ton not just to hear hi share his feelings for me, but also the fact that he shared these feelings at all. His being that open with himself is a new behavior since D-Day, and it reminds me of how hard he's working to be an amazing life partner to me.
There is still plenty of pain in my life, and now that I'm in IC I am going through a lot of grief and sadness that never got processed to begin with. A season is on the horizon, and sometimes it feels like 2 steps forward and 5 steps back, but I feel increasingly positive about where we are headed. So it was a great day.
I was fortunate enough to find SI almost immediately after D-Day. It feels like just yesterday but it's been nearly nine months. I wouldn't have survived without all of you, and I can't thank the SI community enough for the ongoing support.
