But I very strongly feel like he's a huge hypocrite for dating
Not a hypocrite, he's a lunatic
He shouldn't be dating while he has feelings for me
He doesn't have feelings for you. He's playing with you. You are his prey.
Just because I'm the BS doesn't give me any right to do something that I think makes him look bad
You need to stop giving away your rights. You don't have to make him look bad. He's done that for himself.
How do I reach indifference
Stop dwelling on it.
It's unfair. And I know, life's unfair.
If you really believe this, stop exhausting yourself trying to make sense of something so insane.
You are in a typical battered woman syndrome. Just substitute emotional for physical. They love, love, love you then they withdraw followed by the beating. After inflicting tremendous pain, love bomb you, promise it will never happen again and pledge their undying love to you....until the next time. Then it starts all over again. LG, he may have never delivered the physical punches but, the emotional beatings you have gotten from him have worn you down. You are letting him win.
A mistake is only a mistake if we don't learn from it. Learn from this LG. Ever been around an obnoxious, attention seeking child? The best way to deal with them, unless its yours, is to IGNORE him. He craves your attention and he gets it with all his crazy, bat shit behavior.
Stand up and recognize this fool for what he is. Scrape that dog shit off your shoe and move on.
