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((HUGS)) Thank you for updating - I'm sorry the process is dragging out. I hope it's over soon and you can move forward with healing. ((HUGS))

I, too, have mourned the loss of an already dearly beloved babe. Miscarriage IS traumatic, and, 21 years later, talking (or typing) about it still makes me cry. Hugs, sweetie. So sorry for your double pain.

Recently, I've read a new book entitled, "On Loss and Living Onward." Simply beautiful. It may be as wonderful and therapeutic for you.

Sorry you are experiencing this additional extended wait for the miscarriage. I do not want to hurt you by saying this, taking the last flicker of hope from you, but in my experience if your pregnancy signs have gone, or are going, you are most likely not pregnant. HCG levels should be doubling almost daily in a healthy pregnancy, if I remember correctly. I had a terrible pregnancy time where my HCG levels were going up up up, yet my baby had no heartbeat, and was dead as far as the monitor showed. No doctor could figure out why. It went on like this for weeks. It was torture. Not even the doctors knew if I was pregnant or not, thought maybe a twin was hiding behind the dead baby, they were afraid to perform a DandC. But at the same time they were concerned about toxaemia(if I am remembering correctly). It turned out that the placenta was still alive and growing, why my HCG levels continued to rise. But the baby had died.

Your body knows best. For myself, in tears I remember, how my body always told me the truth, while the doctors just kept getting confused by their tests and their monitors, and giving me false hope.

Take care of yourself and be gentle to yourself. You are going through an awful lot right now.

I forgot to mention that SHARE is the group that was a fabulous support to me during all my losses. I highly highly recommend them. The people there care, and have been there, and will support you, and help you see you are not alone.

Prayers to you and your precious baby.

So sorry you are going through this.

I had a stillborn baby two years ago, and it really helped me when I started telling people and recognizing the reason for my grief. Even though they may have felt awkward, it was healing... Don't trivialize it even though you never met the baby!

My WH had his PA just a couple months after we lost our girl, and now I'm dealing with a while new wave of grief and anger about the whole thing. It's so difficult to deal with both the loss of an unborn baby and a spouse's infidelity.

::hugs::

(((TrulySad)))

I am so sorry for your loss, Sweetie.

I have had 3 miscarriages myself - 1 very public and the last 2 I kept to a close group of friends who were an amazing support.

Take your time, be kind to yourself and grieve however you need to. With my first loss, I participated in an online support group and those ladies made all of the difference to me. Jomarion mentioned SHARE and if there is a chapter near you, and you feel comfortable going to a group, please do. But also know you are much loved here at SI too.